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"But the parts of me that are slowly healing end up holding those other parts of me, and although that makes it okay, it also takes most of my emotional and cognitive energy. That’s why it’s so hard to do anything sometimes. But I guess that means I am doing something. I’m healing."

submitted 54 days ago • 1 comment

Final word, write it down; say no more, move along. There's something beautifully strong about being able to shatter without falling apart. Letting them see you in your fractured state, healing before their very eyes. Check it once, check it twice; check it again, check it thrice.

submitted 66 days ago • 0 comments

Correctly placing one's legitimate rage in the appropriate bucket instead of turning it all inward is such a powerful thing.

submitted 70 days ago • 1 comment

The psychic backlash from throwing it all away. The twisting of the real world into what we see today. The brave faces over reality torn in two, the protestation of happiness so blatantly untrue. Lives narrowed to a single point are lived in fear of all.

submitted 77 days ago • 0 comments

I stopped carrying around other people's disappointment today, and then I realized it's the key to approaching life openly. Everything feels different this time.

submitted 80 days ago • 0 comments

Just a boy (45) and their dog. 😍

submitted 96 days ago • 0 comments

In chatting to random people about snowboarding, fielding questions about the closed bar at the show (ppl always think I'm staff for some reason 😂) and testing out local game stores, I've felt teenage me saying "What, we can be a whole person existing in the world?!" & I love showing them that. ♥️

submitted 100 days ago • 0 comments

I have a day trip snowboarding on Thursday, then seeing TUSK (the Fleetwood Mac tribute band) on Friday evening. Spent this past three-day weekend doing so much stuff that I got through about two weeks of self-asks and important life tasks. Absolutely loving all my new decor and room arrangements.

submitted 107 days ago • 0 comments

Sitting in my newly renovated (and still improving) crafts & computer corner (all the c's hehehe) listening to Florence on the big speakers. Reminds me of being 17 laying on my bed with the stereo cranked to block out the world. Weaving a connective fabric back to teenage me is complex & necessary ♥️

submitted 111 days ago • 0 comments

Teenage me wanted tattoos so bad, and always felt like they were things that weren't available to me for various reasons. Fast forward to bantering with the staff at the tattoo shop booth this past weekend, and it's no wonder I feel deeply at peace today. ♥️

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Clear communication might be the thing I need above all else in any situation. Removing ambiguity and just being straightforward is such a beautifully short path to resolution, and saves so much time vs, for example, trying to get X to work when moving on to Y was the answer all along.

submitted 115 days ago • 1 comment

If you've never seen "The Crow" then this won't make a lot of sense (even with the clip, there's the whole rest of the context of the movie that's missing) but I'm discovering that 2025 is, emotionally and mentally, my "can't rain all the time" year. www.youtube.com/watch?v=0Fi7...

submitted 116 days ago • 2 comments

Me buying a travel sewing kit in the convention hotel gift shop to use a clothes pin as a toothpick.

submitted 117 days ago • 0 comments

Tonight I drove to a game store and watched some Commander games happen. Didn't actually talk to anyone because it took all my emotional bandwidth to even get there and go inside, but I'm happy I did that much. Surprised myself with how calm I felt. Maybe next week I'll be able to engage! 😂

submitted 120 days ago • 0 comments

I've been playing Hello Kitty Island Adventure since the Steam release. The devs gated the content and specifically designed the game to break if you time travel, and it's honestly been so freeing to have a "slow game" to check in with. It's helping me to have games as a hobby instead of an escape.

submitted 121 days ago • 0 comments

Okay well, it seems like friends, creators, and most non-Facebook socials users are finding a footing here, so UwU hewwo, here's part of a room makeover I did dis weekend. More later in the week when some stuff arrives! 😍 (Replaced two cracked/yellowed outlets with shiny new ones along the way!)

submitted 123 days ago • 0 comments

It's interesting feeling at peace with myself regardless of whether I'm happy or sad. Thinking about the future without it crushing the present. Recognizing my wants and needs without the emptiness winning. Loving those important to me without the insecurities. Didn't know this was possible!

submitted 126 days ago • 0 comments

Oh hi, I forgot this existed! 🤭 Reading some stuff I posted here a year ago, all I can say is, wow, so much changes in a year in such a good way. 🥰

submitted 229 days ago • 0 comments

A doggo for your consideration!

submitted 530 days ago • 0 comments

Gotta catch 'em all! Retrofuture synth plays

submitted 553 days ago • 0 comments

Things have escalated with Beetle

submitted 571 days ago • 19 comments

Draw a series of boxes inside each other. Yourself is in the center. Lines can connect and overlap, boxes almost merge entirely, but you're still you in the center, a coherent whole. I used to think this would be isolating, but it's so rewarding to see me, and be who I am in the world.

submitted 569 days ago • 0 comments

Got myself the new skate backpack from 50/50! I had their old boxy one for years, it was getting close to falling apart after me scraping it up a bunch of times, so this comes in clutch! The side straps to mount the skates is what makes it a skate backpack. 👍

submitted 571 days ago • 0 comments

Finding outlets for creative expression is great! 👌

submitted 573 days ago • 0 comments

Having one of those "The show is called 'Sex and The City'" days.

submitted 574 days ago • 0 comments

Made a nice wrap for lunch!

submitted 575 days ago • 0 comments

Didn't sleep well last night, woke up emotionally disregulated, but I'm working through it. 🥺

submitted 576 days ago • 0 comments

While I was fully sick with covid I slept so well. I can tell I'm getting better, because last night I couldn't fall asleep until 2am, woke up at 3am, got back to sleep by 4am, woke up around 7:30am and tried to get up, and then woke up again at 9am and got out of bed.

submitted 577 days ago • 0 comments

After traveling with my Switch in a gallon Ziploc to (barely) protect the screen, I finally remembered to get a proper case for it!

submitted 578 days ago • 0 comments

Sometimes ya gotta look fancy!

submitted 579 days ago • 0 comments

Trying to get comfortable with photos of me smiling.

submitted 580 days ago • 0 comments

He tiny, he licc.

submitted 581 days ago • 0 comments

I didn't do anything for Halloween, but I did design a virtual face on a virtual pumpkin, just for the look of the thing.

submitted 582 days ago • 0 comments

Back in the early 2000s I wrote my own multi-server IRC client completely from scratch, using no libraries, by just reading the RFC and implementing it. This was about a year and a half before mIRC had multi-server support. I never did anything with it because it was "just a fun project."

submitted 583 days ago • 0 comments

It's Halloween and I didn't have time for a real costume, which is okay because I don't plan on going out, but I wanted to feel ridiculous for five minutes, so I did this.

submitted 583 days ago • 0 comments

Can we talk about how I still listen to everything on headphones even when I'm the only one around these days?

submitted 584 days ago • 0 comments

The park across the street from my building was looking decidedly Autumnal today. 😁

submitted 584 days ago • 0 comments

Look at this fuzzy boi! #pets #dog

submitted 586 days ago • 0 comments

Took this outside the airport. Seemed relevant for this platform!

submitted 590 days ago • 0 comments

I'd forgotten how funky Rage Against the Machine is. Head nodding in the airport waiting to board after the best week with the most important people in my life. 🥺✨♥️🖤

submitted 590 days ago • 0 comments

Visited a pumpkin patch with friends tonight! 🎃

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