Glad you made it as well! Though battle scarred. Covid killed my mom, didn't get to hug her either. And here the same administration got voted in because people thought it would be 2019 again. Ha!
I hid from covid for 13 months to avoid the ICU. When it caught me, it left me with long covid for nearly two years. It killed my uncle and likely hastened my dad’s demise.
And now the pro-covid cohort is in power, and I’m frequently bouncing between wanting to cry and wanting to punch things.
Thank you. None of you guys get told that nearly enough. Fucking THANK YOU so goddamn much. My uncle died of COVID and the healthcare team he had fought so hard for him and so many others
Thanks 🤘❤️ im lucky to be in an area served by an *excellent* not-for-profit hospital system (Intermountain Healthcare). He really did get great care considering the circumstances. Under normal times with a severe flu he might have made it but Covid is just brutal
Not sure we did. Things haunt me. Follow in a way. And with all of this, I feel myself getting ready. Like how I would before heading in during. Just still…tired. Ya know?
Absolutely. I watched hundreds of people die. For a year I only worked & slept. Then the whole community turned on us, we became villains for recommending vaccination & precautions. I lost practically every relationship that I had. I moved across the country alone. to escape my red state hometown.
Did I write this or you as same. Absolutely same. All of it but moving. Scary how much almost word for word. Driving in passing packed bars of future patients. Friends…family lost not to Covid but because of. But the bitterness, the fucking bitterness of those in charge and even our own admin….
Our “leaders” broke me. Felt like private ryan “just give us a fucking chance!!” I will never forgive those now lifted up by this administration. It’s a slap in the face as they continue to “hunt” us down in a way. And not one of them were in a room. Not one of them were there. I hate this place.
I will never forgive them or trust them again. 2020 was a nightmare. 2021 broke me. “Can I get that shot now? I didn’t think it was real” and having to answer every fucking time with no. Not no for control but a heart breaking no of it’s too late. In this situation because of what they heard from..
I gave everything to my work, now work is pretty much all I have left. We risked our lives every day and night to save people who were out at bars and restaurants as soon as they could walk again. People who went on to deny that covid even existed, & discouraged other people from getting vaccinated.
I feel like a zombie. I'm numb, when I can feel anything it is almost always anger. Yes, I got therapy. I have come to understand why and how individual people came to make the choices they did. But I still have such contempt for the "experts" who led people to harm with their minimizing and lies.
Oh, God I am so sorry. I’m not the same and I didn’t see people die. Nothing bad happened to me personally! We had terror when my mom went into the hospital with covid but she is OK now. The horror was only from knowing abstract things like people are dying who don’t have to die because of lies.
I know ppl who still use ivermectin from farm and home when they get covid!!!! To this day!!! I was pregnant at the time and an adjunct. But I'll never forget the dream of my friend screaming her daughters name, next day she died of covid. We lost a lot when she was taken.
Numb. But man that anger. Yeah…jumpy, hyper focused. Struggling to find the therapist that doesn’t ask me for medical advise or literally push back on how “bad” it was.
I didn’t see my parents for over a year. I saw my adult children once a month, out on the front lawn. I worked 16-hour shifts 5-6 days/week without eating or drinking to preserve PPE.
A year later they had to bring in the National Guard to protect us from visitors who didn’t want to wear a mask.
Thank you. I’m sorry. I was on another side of that — my family and I isolated ourselves as best we could for 13 months so that I wouldn’t be one more person needing intensive hospital care.
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And now the pro-covid cohort is in power, and I’m frequently bouncing between wanting to cry and wanting to punch things.
For the reasons you mentioned (and that Covid killed my mom pre-vax) we remain vigilant. I hate this administration.
I guess I’m alive to watch RFK Jr destroy decades of science and life saving vaccines
Fuck this place
A year later they had to bring in the National Guard to protect us from visitors who didn’t want to wear a mask.