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eventuallymaude.bsky.social
MtF, she/her, baby trans girl, mid-30s, AuDHD, engineer, leftist, cat mom, Babylon 5 fan, submissive transbian, late bloomer. HRT 03/25/2023 Orchiectomy 01/04/2024.
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Check it out, new piercing! I have no fucking idea how I got that blood blister under my ring finger.

"Total Recall".

One of the nurses has a deep voice and kind of a blocky jaw, but otherwise just a girl. Also my veins are hiding as usual. I might be a vampire or a Breen.

Good Morning, Angels. My ovulation cycle is peaking. A perfect time to have a surgeon go medieval on my face. Day one of FFS starts in a about 2 hours.

I have to take my piercings out before bed. I really like having metal bars through ny skin, but silicone studs will do for a while.

In non FFS news, today I learned that I've been regularly advising a late blooming trans girl I helped hatch and her cis wife, unknown to any of us, for the better part of 6 months on reddit. It wasn't until the wife asked about the trans girl starting progesterone, and i suggested the wife buy her

I don't think trans girls should see this...oops.

Honestly I think I'd just die immediately upon walking into this bathroom.

I know I'm a woman because...

I live one town over from the courthouse. This took 8 or 9 days to get here. Is there any chance I'll be presentable by July 7th? It's scheduled to be my Name Day.

For a "utopian communist egalitarian state" the Solar Central Government could be kind of scary.

I don't think i know of any cases of any instances where leaders reduced or "corrected" the amount of rights their citizens enjoyed that didn't end with them being remembered as monsters.

The roadworks around my office are not fucking around. They ripped the asphalt out at least 2 feet down. And waze doesn't know the road is closed, which adds 10 minutes to every trip.

Fuck. He lived a good long life and helped shape several generation's tastes in music, until Simon Cowell ruined everything.

I’m leaving for one hell of a two week break from work in 40 minutes. The company and my coworkers know this. So naturally I’ve received no fewer than 5 work emails about things requiring my attention in the next week today. Thankfully I’m way ahead on my work.

I leave for my pre op in 1.5 hours. After that, things get weird for a while and, with any luck, will never be quite the same again.

Good Morning, Angels. I got my first bad haircut yesterday. My hairdresser misunderstood me, and I was too zonked out to notice how short she was cutting my hair. And my pre op consultation is at 2 pm. After that I have to finish cleaning Mt apartment and pack. I'm so tired. FFS tomorrow, already.

If my FFS turns out according to my surgeon’s reported mean performance, knock on wood, then when I’m healed up I might start posting nudes, especially since I still have weight to lose.

My hairdresser misunderstood me and took way more of my hair off than I wanted. It can still look okay, and it's about to be a much smaller issue all things considered, but I didn't need this this week.

I silently asked if I'll be okay in a week. I hate these things.

Tomorrow is my last work day with this face.

During my FFS consultation almost years ago, I was experiencing a "spike in dysphoria and irritability" I now understand to be PMS. I notice my body was "collecting period symptoms" about a month later. In an unusual bit of circularity, I'm ovulating this week, peaking on Thursday.

So of my voice trainer never sent me my homework, do I still lose credit?

I wrote a revenge fantasy about nerds in my school mutating into a superior species and eventually ousting preppy kids. It didn’t make much sense and in retrospect was 75% gender dysphoria wish fulfillment and coping.

Good Morning, Angels. Only two more mornings with this face…holy shit! I I hadn’t fully thought that through when I started typing. Anyway I forgot what I was going to type, something about my hair trim today…no…that’s right, how soon after FFS should I invite friends to visit?

I’m not going to lie, I want to be beautiful in a severe and slutty way, like if you get my attention you’re either going to get dressed down or get your dick sucked. Like if Susan Ivanova or Natassi Daala had a high femme slut phase. But my main motivation is to make the pain go away.

My friend was guessing zodiac signs, and she guessed I'm an Ares. My calendar sign is Sagittarius. But the day my mind reconnected with my body, 20 days into HRT, my rebirth day, was April 14th. Fucking Ares. I minored in astronomy. And physics, and mathematics, and humanities. I hate astrology.

She's totally a Cylon.

Starting my transition in 2023 wasn't my best idea, but I'm so happy i did it.