hyper-ririi.bsky.social
divine lesbian animatronic war machine
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full-stack js/ts, indie hacker + game dev + internet comentator
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The usual move is to compare current politics to Idiocracy, but in this case it's a bit darker
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Brass Eye adjacent (Christopher Morris' writing)
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considering that the prison aspect (combined with the chastity cage) is just BDSM at that point (because apparently that's how *serious* progressives take things like criminal justice and prison rape)
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The solution she had was even more concerning:
the person i was arguing with insisted that signalling identity politics should be enforced by putting non surgical-transitioning mtfs into womens prisons, and forcing them to wear chastity cages, which is total fetish shit x_X
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I _have_ a cat named Koffee ☕ so this is a bit unusual maybe.
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Some of the stuff I've heard from mainstream "progressives" is pretty disheartening.
Like, apparently I'm gatekeeping, by insisting that people should get SRS to be put in a prison for their sex they transition to
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Tbh, its so shocking hearing the current of things, That most people outside of the US assume that it's not as bad as it is.
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4/4 What was particularly intriguing is that deep into the PEA binge like a month or two before I kicked that habit,
I found that going into a VR environment, before the come-up would stop a lot of the tactile hallucinations, possibly due to wearing a HMD, but my attention span was gone, so no point
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With stimulant abuse, it's usually a combination of both skin damage and tactile hallucinations.
Although with high doses of Moda, no hallucinations, but possibly an allergic reaction to the metabolites.
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If it's hallucinations. That's more complicated iirc.
But with skin it's usually to do with elevated histamine or a change in blood flow from the sympathetic nervous system being overactive for a long time
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Brutal 😣
I've actually been trying to understand why eczema happens, and why stimulants like that destroy skin, although a lot of it has to do with a change in blood flow, that or change in function of the immune system.
Feminizing HRT helps, but skin barrier damage is hard to repair completely.
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It's pretty f****** sad that I've had to basically be my own doctor for so long. And I'm looking forward to not having to do that. But.. I've tried basically every nootropic. And I'm still living to tell the tale. So I try to pass that knowledge on when I can with a warning usually
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And I say Moda is bad for your skin, but phenylethylamine + maoi has like full methamphetamine side effects. Like hallucinating bugs in your skin. Trying to dig them out. Compulsive behavior. Not being able to do complex things, very different vibe than Moda
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So what was interesting is that the PEA binge I did in lockdown, actually broke me out of all the stuff I was obsessed with after the hallucinations.
But it was very very addictive and it took 11 months to quit that. And I couldn't really do much except play music really loud And not sleep much.
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Huh... So Moda is actually narcolepsy medication But it also enhances memory + focus. It's not really super dope. It's just supposed to make people stay awake.
Estrogen and caffeine synergize super powerfully. So I find 5 to 10 cups of coffee a day keeps me purring :3
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I'm told that LSD is like s tier.
I've used other psychedelics. But not stimulating ones like that, but from what gathered talking to chat gpt, the way I was using Moda is kind of like LSD. But a bit milder. And a bit less serotonergic.
I give it an a- (very good, but a few mild side effects)
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The PEA + MAOI combo was partially. What derailed my life in the pandemic.
But Moda is really good.
It's at least not a disaster..
The other thing that messd things up was the first time I tried to quit nicotine. I couldn't sleep for 4days and then I had a psychotic episode+religious experience
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If you take it with a monoamine oxidase inhibitor (sketchier to get), then be more careful with the dosage. And whatever you do don't combine that with phenylethylamine, Because monoamine oxidase-B Inhibitors cause phenylethylamine to build up, and then that's like really dirty speed.
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After taking eight doses per day for 70 days ish, and then stopping cold turkey. There was no withdrawal. Amazingly. But I did have eczema pretty bad for months. And it's kind of died down now. Thankfully.
It up regulates D2 receptors, but so does estrogen interestingly. Weaker than Ritalin or dex
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It's pretty exhilarating.
Some people say they feel less creative. But I've actually written a lot of rap lyrics, and two summers ago, after I quit nicotine, I binged a few hundred doses, and found a reason to live again. And developed a more resilient mindset, And invented a JS framework.
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It's pretty good. You can probably get it. But it's finicky.
Armo is better than Moda.
Generic from India is less than 10% the cost.
Some people get anxious, at low doses, although with nicotine it's a bit different. Probably less anxiety inducing.
High doses can cause eczema or death, fyi
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I mean I've been on a waiting list to get a family doctor for about a decade.
The government just promised that I would have one in one year from now 😭
But after my reckless past, I would honestly be content with a prescription for Vyvanse, and taking it as prescribed.
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I was just canceled by a furry For accessing therapy from a machine, But I'm really trying my best to keep the peace here.
I see potential for this social network. But it's a team effort to keep a respectful environment.
Why people use X still, I'm not sure. Some leftists do apparently
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I didn't want to talk to him. But my tankie friend shared an account that he commented on, and then I couldn't help presenting a moderate POV to him. So. Yeah 😂
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Oh damn.
This actually sounds complicated. I need to look up every part of everything you just said.
I assumed that taking probiotics, and getting exercise and drinking water would calm everything down, but I feel like my gut is a lot more sensitive on HRT now
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2/2 while legal without a prescription in Canada -Or at least not illegal-, that is a pretty expensive drug that I can't afford also. So.. No, you haven't met me while I've been jacked up on that 😶
Not yet 😇
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Generally I avoid sugar too. Like I drink my coffee black.
I don't blame you for smoking cigarettes.
I used to vape nicotine.
I found modafinil was better than nicotine.
it also hits the same nicotine acetylcholine receptors, As well as selectively blocking DAT In PFC + upping norepinephrine
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2/2 One of the interesting dynamics of this is that, I eat red meat so infrequently and actually any meat for that matter So infrequently, that my gut biome isn't used to it, and I physically get sick for a day or two after
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That's true. It's institutionalized cruelty 😭
So I kind of hit hard times.
And as I say, it's okay to be a failure as long as you pick yourself up again and keep going.
But I have been eating from food banks, it occasionally. That means eating meat although not very often.
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Thanks for reminding me.
I do need to listen to bit more. Even if it can be infuriating at times.
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.. I digress but I think specifically, we should keep a calm tone here, even if we disagree. And I appreciate that You've been so patient, even though I've been venting.
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I mean. I don't fw that haha
I've also noticed that like there's a lot of factors that shift how people view things.
Obviously being sober is a good idea.
I only use drugs that promote clarity, and beyond that, pain relief. But I don't really smoke weed anymore. Unlike the girl who was nasty
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A lot of the so-called progressives who troll right wingers on Twitter, and b**** about Israel, will still use Microsoft products, even though Microsoft supports imperialism, because they want to play video games and detach themselves from reality, and then masturbate to cartoon pornography, after
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But like a lot of the same people who are a boycotting things in the name of performative activism will not be vegans. Because that doesn't have the same social signaling value
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I'm not sure I'm educated enough to be able to test if that's true or not. Although that does sound compelling
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No kidding.
I've started using the term non-zionist To indicate that I don't believe in blindly boycotting everything, But I will not willingly support genocide either.
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I mean. There's a certain point where you have to accept that someone is only motivated by hate.
I've just noticed that the left also has this issue where people feel righteous anger, and they've lost the plot in terms of having empathy, and being motivated by caring
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You're absolutely right.
I think something snapped in me yesterday.
Someone who was obstensively kind and accepting threw me under the bus In the name of progressivism.
I'm trying to do the responsible thing and not become a reactionary.
I'm not disillusioned, But A bit disaffected now.
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Sort of leading up to this,
I had a romantic and sexual experience with a furry on Bluesky (Because of course that's something that happens)
Who abruptly decided to shame me and try and cancel me for accessing therapy and writing code with AI.
Which doesn't seem like what liberalism should be.
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If you're taking a far left standpoint, there's basically no making peace,
But As a center-left moderate - to- center libertarian,
I feel a bit obligated to advocate for basic LGBT rights to the far right. Which I just had some luck with last night, by having empathy even for people like that
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My tankie friend refuses to use BlueSky, because Blue Sky band some people who were spamming to collect money for Palestine.
I got a bit frustrated that she's still using elon's platform, but eventually she made the case to me that It's where most the discours is happening.
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this dance probably doesn't help back pain right?
will this hurt my back?
Also, tanigentally, wrt your title,
if you don't talk to maga people, then how are you going to bring about peace?
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I get how you're trying to point out Injustice. And you want everything to be fair and communist. But how are you going to undo technological progress, how are you going to close Pandora's box, now that there's open source models on the internet, and affordable hardware for AI?
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One of the things I do a lot, is have the same conversation over and over, each time getting to different nuances, whether that's working through old trauma I've had, or developing an idea. I take multiple iterations, sometimes a dozen or more going through the same thing. Each time with nuance
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To be fair though, I should really be showing you how I use chat GPT. I've had about 6,000 conversations over the last 2 years with it, as well as using GitHub co-pilot, although currently I'm in more of a research phase shifting to a development phase now, building my new site and social network
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If anything, modern progressive culture is making people a lot dumber than AI.