nightmaremantis.bsky.social
35/He/It
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Mi'kmaw/Acadian
Non-theistic Satanist
Canadian bug artist who occasionally posts art. Working on an original comic. Sometimes post about my cats. Occasionally nsfw so no minors. Hyperfixated on my OC Peal, the silver eyed mantis.
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The brain sure is a funky little creature. It's always been a difficult subject for me to talk about because on one side you get skeptics who want to call you crazy or a liar and then on the other you get ufo nuts who want to use you like a prop for their pet theories. I just wanna live bro, lol.
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I'm not sure where to go with this right now, but I think my brain is telling me to rip away that curtain and stop hiding this. I might try redrawing some of my memories, now that I'm a bit better at it. We'll see.
And no, I don't know what they are but I don't think they're literal aliens. 9/9
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I've hidden this part of my past for so long, mostly out of embarrassment and shame. What kind of rational and logical person has such experiences after all? I just wanted to be normal. But I think I've been subconsciously trying to fill the void they left behind ever since. It explains a lot. 8/9
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should have made it impossible, I could clearly see the silhouette of who it was. It was one of them. Pangs of the instinctive fear they cause gripped me immediately, but I got the sense that I didn't need to worry. That he would not come out unless I was ready. I'm not sure what to make of it. 7/9
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the wall. It was a thick heavy fabric, with a dark burgundy color and a subtle floral pattern. I couldn't figure out why it stood out to me so much, when it started to move and I realized someone was sitting behind it in a crouched position. The figure stood up, and though the thick fabric 6/9
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this ever since that dream. I'm not sure why I feel like it relates to them. But I had another dream yesterday. It was mostly just normal random nonsense but I just kind of stopped in the middle of my dream and stared at a weird curtain set up against a wall. No window, just right up against 5/9
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The insomnia, the fear, the confusion, the stress of it was all too much. I wanted to just have a normal life. So he gave me what I asked for. The last time Vie visited, he told me it would be the last. And that has held true ever since. Now I find myself regretting it. I've been thinking about- 4/9
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I spent years going through a barrage of different tests and trying to find a rational explanation with the help of doctors. But it all came back as normal. I'd deny it all as just dreams if I could, but I know that's not true. It only stopped when I was 24 because I begged for them to stop. 3/9
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I cannot stress enough that I do not WANT to believe. I actually rather despise the community that surrounds the phenomena, both the nuts-and-bolts and the spiritual woo sides of it. I don't even particularly like sci-fi; it's a pretty boring genre to me. But that doesn't change what happened. 2/9
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Right? Being trans is fine but autism is somehow over the line???
I guess I shouldn't be too surprised given how against my brother's ADHD diagnosis she was but man wtf.
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I was thinking of doing a mix of sfw and nsfw ones. Just somewhat unsure about interest levels since, while people seem to really like Peal overall, that doesn't necessarily translate into people wanting to spend the money yeah? I'm also thinking of doing some smaller pride ones too tho.
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Well Kirby is very friend shaped and he's round too so the math checks out to me.
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I'm still so shocked after knowing them for years. I called it out immediately and got a suspiciously right-wingy response. They've been cagey about it all ever since. I want to go full nuclear on them so bad but I'm also hesitant because I'll have no irl friends left when I do.
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If acceptance is only given when you don't offend delicate cis sensibilities then I don't want it. I'll just take advantage of being in a country where I'm least likely to be hate crimed for it and be as obnoxious as possible. If only in solidarity with those who are not so fortunate right now.
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After the out of body experience that was having my supposedly accepting friends openly talk about being against trans kids and finally realizing what their saying I'm not like other trans people really means; I think I'm done with being the socially acceptable tran. I get it now.
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People seem to like the idea of something they can't have. So I guess they see me and think it's a challenge or something. I had a friend seriously ask me if I'd consider being a sub if my partner wanted it and I'm like bro what??? He's seen my nsfw art he should know I'd be a dom if anything, lol.
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You would think. Like I get that it's a deal breaker for a lot of people and that's totally fine! Just be honest about it instead of wasting everyone's time trying to fix what isn't broken. Lots of other people out there that actually want it. But I guess that's part of the point?
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Also next person that asks me if the testosterone fixed my asexuality is going to find out that these hands are E for everyone.
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You would not believe the amount of times I've been perfectly clear about the fact that there will be no genital smashing and they say they get it but THEY DON'T.
"Wouldn't you do it to make your partner happy?"
SEEING YOU DEEP THROAT A CACTUS WOULD MAKE ME HAPPY SO WHY WON'T YOU DO THAT FOR ME?
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I'm glad you like it! And yeah, I tend to go a little insane with tightening up my sketches before I do the lines, lol. It's my secret to making sure there's no major difference in quality between the sketch and final versions of my work.
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Can I pet it tho
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Personally I like 3 most but I'm a sucker for FLOOF.
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Did my usual walk to work and holy shit, the inhaler is life changing. I didn't feel like I was fucking dying after arriving. My stamina suddenly ate shit in the past year or so and now I know why. Starting to think the flu I got really was covid because I've never been the same since.
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It apparently runs in my family and nobody ever told me before? I'm just glad I live in Canada and have good health coverage because holy shit, 150 bucks for an inhaler that will only last you a month is insane (I only had to pay 5).
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That or a bland rehashing of a popular piece of media. There is no real expression or thought being communicated here. It's all just vacuous grabs for adulation and money. Create product. Consume product. They can think of nothing else.
It's no wonder they're all so damn miserable and cruel.
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What they hate is more fundamental: the source of our ideas. Our minds, rich with texture of thought. They can't fathom it, because they don't have it. I mean, the ideas these guys seem to have all mostly boil down to big titty white girl with suspiciously youthful face.
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He sadly did not survive the encounter, but the fight kept her from reaching my dwarves and potentially causing a werecreature death spiral. To honor his sacrifice, I had a memorial engraved and erected in the tavern so he could always be there in a way. Bless that little dude.
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One day a wereporcupine attacked, but by the time I received the alert she had already transformed back into a dwarf and was almost dead. Confused, I went through the combat log and found that the kobold had crossed paths with her at the map edge and fought.