transducer.bsky.social
š³ļøāā§ļøšŗ, posting through it as I finally š£ (š³ļøāā§ļøš 12/6/24). She/her. 40.
Call an informed consent clinic TODAY to make an appt for HRT, even if you donāt want itābecause by the time the appt happens, who knows?
There is still time. The time will pass anyway.
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it has been a real heck of a specific six months in history to have my first six months of transition, personally
Not sure if that helps or hurts that some days feel a little tough to cherish
but either way, to hell with going backwards, so š¤·š»āāļø
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in the world of Trix commercials the āstranger dangerā PSAs looked very different
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definitely saw the take without looking at whose it was, started to hand it to him, then figured it out. Felt like a Trix commercial š¤¦š»āāļø
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this is the good news I needed to read today, bless you š
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Truth. I donāt have time for fascism! I have a girl to be, and Iām already forty years behind!
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You too š«
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Read the dissents first because there's no way that trans liberation won't happen at some point. Just not today, sadly.
And when it does happen, all these transphobic bellends will pretend they were always for trans rights.
I'm disgusted.
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youāre like this because cisgender heteropatriarchy is a fascist regime which indoctrinates unto the very air we breathe that no one is āreally trans,ā not āenoughā
Even if clout hunger were all you wereā¦ to choose to handle it by, of all things, forcefemming yourself on Bluesky? Not very cis, sis!
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oh no, wait, sorry, thought this was a Digimon thing. Genshin Impact is somewhat less trans, if I recall the latest rankings
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this might actually be the transest thing youāve ever posted (šš)
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Also I need to update my therapist on how it all went, lol.
instead of constantly emailing her screenshots of my posts I should just make her a BlueSky account lmao
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So when I message her in the morning to thank her for the dinner etc (again: etiquette! Itās What We Do In This Familyā¢) I want to include a link for her to pick up Woodworking (if she wants) and that draft letter I wrote the other week (still pleased with that one, tbh).
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I did recommend āWoodworkingā to my mother in the process, which may have been an error on my part. Itās probably a little too soapy for my mom to handle.
Still, better she learn it from there than on the streets (pretty sure āDetransition, Babyā would fully Scanners her š¬)
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Oh, and I explained this to my mom & bro, who did seem to get itāthat Iād already determined before November to start transitioning, but the fascism if anything steeled my resolve to go for it.
The hell Iām going to closet myself and do the fascistsā hateful work for them. They can come get me.
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Oh my gosh thatās so real though. The bit about the fear, the control. That has absolutely been my trite-ass end-of-the-episode moral for the day I just had lol
(And Iām so glad you got to have that moment of spontaneous trans girl connection, that sounds so cool! š)
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That last bit was right before I left, so perhaps not the most graceful of dismounts for me to make. Butā¦ itās done.
Again, it went well! Maybe as well as it could!
More important, tho: I never have to fall asleep worrying about what it *might* be like to come out to them, ever again. In my LIFE.
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Realized I was infodumping a liāl re: HRT, said āš
I still am who I am. Itās like a whole new set of PokĆ©mon!ā
Mom went āsee I told you, if you could just focus on something besides those Pikachusāā
I was all āoh? š wanna talk about what I was maybe repressing at age 13, by fixating on PokĆ©mon? šā
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mostly, likeā¦ they were able to absorb that I can laugh about this. That Iām not looking to be confrontational or antagonistic (I have no ability nor desire to call Pronoun ICE on anyone).
Iām simply a more honest version of who Iāve always been. Thatās what I think they wanted to be reassured of.
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we should start an egg manga book club. Call it āthe cartonā lol
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I shared w/mom & bro the rough timeline (basically always knew; accepted ~2018; accepted I needed to do something about it in early 2024; made appt last Oct, started HRT last Dec.)
I also paraphrased for them The Post thatās been my north star through all this (or at least one of my north stars):
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partner was there too; holy CRAP am I grateful.
We fielded my mom awkwardly wondering if we were still a couple (which we are) lmao
Partner reiterated that they always saw my transitioning as inevitable; I reiterated how thankful I am for that faith during times I did not at all have it in myself.
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Thatās this same brother, btw.
I told him how much I genuinely appreciated him sending thisāthat it truly was the energy I needed at that moment, to let me feel like āthis is going to be okay.ā
Also when I walked in he said āhi, Jenā pointedlyāin a good, āI hereby declare Iām on your sideā way ā¤ļø
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Brother was all āI wasnāt fully surprised.ā Didnāt want to get into it in front of Mom but later I said āIt was the Ranma 1/2, wasnāt it.ā
āYeah, that and āFutaba-Kun Change.ā They were the first two manga you brought into the house!ā
Iād forgotten fuckin āFutaba-Kun Changeāābut, I mean, no lies š¤·š»āāļø
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Omg had you not heard this before?! Ugh well fine Iāll still tell you the secondary (better) punchline this weekend lol
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ššš Iām getting more & more psyched!! Like, I wasnāt dreading it, but itās becoming more real thatā¦ Iām actually doing this! Itās not just for the Internet anymore! š«Øš¤Æš
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Told mom & bro how crappy it felt to be half-out to people, which made it feel good for my coming-out process to be a bit faster than planned
told them the āyāknow, itās funny you ask why my skinās gotten better latelyā story I love so much. They didnāt find it as funny as I do, but they did get it
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Thank you š„°šš„° Iām definitely going to keep adding to this thread as I continue to process my thoughts by Posting Through It lmao
But also youāll get to hear all this & then some on Saturday!! š (ā¦or, no more nor less than you want š
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god, Iām so sorry. I wish there were something I could do to help.
Iām definitely aware that Iām very, very luckyāboth in that even the worst-case version of this would be (infuriatingly) civil & almost totally non-violentāand even more so in what actually happened.
Iām so sorry, sis. šš«
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it was good to talk a little with mom & bro about how dadās going to beā¦ a bit more awkward still.
Heās burdened by the ādead gay brotherā of it all (not to put too fine a point on it š¤·š»āāļø). And his parentsā¦ well, not around anymore, who cares.
The relationship requires care. What else is new there.
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Haha yep. Awkward but huge.
The two people it scared me to know, know. Thatās not a burdensome possibility anymore, itās a nice simple straightforward fact. Which is an incredible load off of me!!
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thank you! I feel honestly kinda lightheaded, Iāve only been dreading this for somewhere between āmonthsā and ādecadesā