my eating disorder still has a huge grip on my brain, except now i no longer have the ability to do any of the things that kept me tiny. so now i just, what, have to look at this in the mirror forever?
I was able to lose 40 pounds in like 10 months of dieting and exercise once, but in 40 minutes the only thing that I can think of is dropping like 10k for liposuction
but yes when you hit your mid-20's this shit happens. for me it was very slow because I didn't drink beer and never ate sugar. then suddenly when I hit 39 I realized I needed to turn it around
in my case it's genuinely that i was doing horrible things to my body from ages like 15-21 and now im 26 and ugly in a way that scares me because the only way i know how to change it was so bad i nearly died
honestly if i saw anyone else who looked like me i wouldn't call them fat, but i've always been pretty because im tiny, and now im not tiny so im not pretty and my brain is screaming
i don't think lipo clinics take anorexics who are just upset about being the size of a human, otherwise i'd have booked an appointment like six months ago
like yes, obviously, i cherish how far i've come. and i've done a stupid amount of damage to my body. i am more or less lucky to be alive!
...but almost everybody thinks i was gorgeous at my horrible low weights
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...but almost everybody thinks i was gorgeous at my horrible low weights