So many things I've thought, but been too tired, too stressed, to guilty to stop and figure out how to say.
I don't think people without chronic depression realize how much of it is about feeling beyond miserable over your own inability to do things that reduce your misery.
Thank you, thank you.
Feel this. I’ve tried em all. My current one (Auvelity) seems like it’s going to be “as good as it gets” for me. But I really relate to your mom not getting you help; mine wouldn’t either and it’s fucked.
I’m not even sure it’s really doing much for my depression, but I stopped it for a bit because of insurance and got a migraine every day. So I think it helps my migraines? Have you tried MAOIs before?
no, but my psych thinks one of them in particular might work well, given my treatment history. but who knows, it’s hard to be optimistic at this point.
I’m sorry. I hope you find the magic potion soon. I thought a while back that Spravato had helped my SI a lot, but I was also doing a lot of shrooms on the side and now think THAT was what helped. Now I mostly listen to Cindy Lee with a blanket on my head.
❤️🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥 I feel this so much since I just started an additional antidepressant and am actually functioning like a whole person again! I don’t know how long it’ll will last though. Hopefully enough to make it through this semester.
it's not quite right to say reading this was "wonderful," but the sense of solidarity & familiarity I felt reading this cut through a lot of pain. thank you for sharing & giving voice to this (literally).
as someone in the thick of this rn (all the way down to the MTHFR mutation), thank you for writing this. i'm transitioning out of a PHP program rn and i feel lonely at the sheer idea of being around "normal people" again. thx for easing that. sorry this shit is so awful but also, solidarity & love.
i hope spravato helps! it is a crapshoot for me and it might be because i am on a very high dose of another drug that might make it less effective. on the plus side, you know almost right away! i paid retail for deplin for a while for the MTHFR problem but it’s out of patent now, which helps a lot.
oh BLESS YOU for the deplin heads up. i have been paying for EnLyte and its fucking absurdly expensive.
also, thank you!!! i learned today that there is a TMS clinic literally next door to where they do ketamine administration so either way, i'll have something.
yeah, my clinic (“relief mental health” lol) does both, too.
yeah you can get it on amazon now! slightly more expensive but literally identical to deplin and OTC is this brand methylpro. also fyi it’s only really effective at 15 mg. (my doctor did some of the trialing.)
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I don't think people without chronic depression realize how much of it is about feeling beyond miserable over your own inability to do things that reduce your misery.
Thank you, thank you.
also, thank you!!! i learned today that there is a TMS clinic literally next door to where they do ketamine administration so either way, i'll have something.
yeah you can get it on amazon now! slightly more expensive but literally identical to deplin and OTC is this brand methylpro. also fyi it’s only really effective at 15 mg. (my doctor did some of the trialing.)