I had this vision the other day of my OCD as a plant that is growing inside my head, with a knotted mass of vines wrapped around my brain and a single tendril extending out of my mouth and blooming into a flower; I might try to paint this at some point. - ThreadSky

luxalptraum.com • 23 days ago

I had this vision the other day of my OCD as a plant that is growing inside my head, with a knotted mass of vines wrapped around my brain and a single tendril extending out of my mouth and blooming into a flower; I might try to paint this at some point.

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fern-productions.bsky.social•22 days ago

I've never read a more beautiful metaphor for OCD in my life.

luxalptraum.com•22 days ago

Thank you!

ramicure.bsky.social•22 days ago

like Audrey II from little shop o horror: It demands attention, demands to be fed, and provides nothing but the affirmation that you are it’s to control.

What has your coping journey been like? Have you found success in anything specific?

luxalptraum.com•22 days ago

So I was dxed in 2017 and immediately launched into a six month course of CBT (to learn to recognize my OCD), ERP (to desensitize myself to it), and mentalization therapy (because my therapist is into that). It dramatically changed my life, and the years since have been a fine tuning process.

luxalptraum.com•22 days ago

I go back to therapy when I feel like I need more support; last summer a combo of severe stress and psilocybin that I thought would be therapeutic set me back *a lot*, but I restabilized with SSRIs that I am now tapering off of.

luxalptraum.com•22 days ago

So, it’s a process!

ramicure.bsky.social•22 days ago

The process is our journey, the journey is our lives!

I enjoy your symbolism of a flower and by extension a garden.

Good luck in your garden, may you find the peace you are looking for.

luxalptraum.com•22 days ago

Thank you, and you as well!

luxalptraum.com•23 days ago

The thing of it is, the flower is what other people understand as my OCD, but for me its this knotted mass of vines, some of which are so deeply embedded into my brain they feel like a fundamental part of it. And the process of the past seven and a half years has been pruning the vines.

luxalptraum.com•23 days ago

The plant is not going anywhere. It’s there for life. My job is to keep it in check.

psyllobora22.bsky.social•23 days ago

I am trying to think of mine as a school bully or an annoying 'friend' that just gaslights you continually. Or like a 'debate me bro' type 😅

luxalptraum.com•23 days ago

That’s the way to do it! I named mine after a woman who bullied me in college, I yell at her a lot.

psyllobora22.bsky.social•23 days ago

Haha the kids who bullied me in school have really common names and I'm friends with people who have the same names 😅

luxalptraum.com•23 days ago

Foiled!

megan-sass.bsky.social•19 days ago

F*ck. Yeah. Relatable.

boondockersworld.bsky.social•23 days ago

Should be amazing✨

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