A month ago, little Autistic me got excited and carried away and talked too much during a meeting. Even though everyone seemed nice about it, I'm still cringing and feeling bad about it.
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Oof. That delayed ability for us to shake it off is so hard. I have been told (and I also am hard to believe it but fuck it) maybe it wasn’t as big a deal to them as it seems to you…? Again, that is the legend I have been told, maybe just an internet myth. 🤣
I still go through that at work sometimes. Or talking in person or on the phone. Constantly trying to be brief and trim my run-on-ness. But I think you're a gem for getting excited and having so much to contribute! Always feel good about that. 💙
19 yrs ago, I got excited & talked too much at an interview (was a job in a museum that linked to my degree, was so keen)... I didn't get the job & still sometimes think about how I must have appeared OTT (info dump, 100 ideas a minutes, etc).🤣
You're OK 🤗
I know it's not the same but fwiw, my daughter was diagnosed with anxiety. After a social situation, she would often say how terrible she did and how everyone could tell she was such a freak. I'd assure her that no one noticed anything odd, including me!
Moti. One of my biggest fears in my 35 years of working was exactly that. I’d get over enthusiastic at a meeting and rue the day. It was just insecurity as I look back. We all have those moments, not just you. I may may not have been born with Autism but my 43 yr old son was. Believe in yourself. 💙
We are often our own worst critics. I end up hanging onto stuff like that for years after everyone else has forgotten and moved on, if they even noticed.
You have as much right to talk during the meeting as anyone else does, and your input is valuable and matters. I hope your team sees that too.
Thank you, and very true. I am sure the team are okay with it, as I wouldn't have volunteered to work with them if I wasn't 100% sure they were nice people, but years of conditioning still makes me panic and ruminate.
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(this is me also)
You're OK 🤗
You have as much right to talk during the meeting as anyone else does, and your input is valuable and matters. I hope your team sees that too.