It lies to you. Even when you know it lies to you, and it's lied to you before, on multiple occasions, you can still fall for it. - ThreadSky

wangleberry.bsky.social • 4 days ago

It lies to you. Even when you know it lies to you, and it's lied to you before, on multiple occasions, you can still fall for it.

Reposted from Tim Clare

It's weird how common it is for depressed people to not realise they have depression for *ages*, at least the first time it happens. Like life doesn't seem worth living, they can barely get out of bed, they keep crying.
A friend says: 'do you think you might be depressed?'
'Nah.'

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whitehart.bsky.social•4 days ago

Even when I *know* I'm depressed, because I've been depressed for weeks, it will still sneak in there. "Yes, you're depressed, but ALSO life is bleak and futile!" "Yes, you're depressed, but ALSO you've fucked everything up beyond all repair!"

cheyinka.bsky.social•4 days ago

And even when you're already pretty sure it is lying to you right now, you still hear it say "well you wouldn't be depressed if you weren't so awful!!" and think "yeah, sounds right". (At least I do.)

sasooli.bsky.social•4 days ago

Also, it still really unpleasant constantly being told "you suck and everything is shit" even if you know it's a lie. Like if your spouse or best friend started saying that to you constantly that would be really awful, whether you believed them or not.

cheyinka.bsky.social•4 days ago

Absolutely. "yeah fine whatever I'm a turd and the world's a latrine, can I please have enough executive function to buy groceries now"

wangleberry.bsky.social•4 days ago

My anxiety is an officious health and safety manager named Ron.

fionnuisce.bsky.social•4 days ago

I said to a therapist once that I felt stupid falling for cognitive traps, that I should have been smart enough to notice.

He said it was my own brain coming up with them. If I was smart enough to spot the traps I was smart enough to come up with more devious ones.

bambi-helen.bsky.social•4 days ago

This is a really good point. The call is coming from inside the house.

fionnuisce.bsky.social•4 days ago

Totally changed my outlook on depression. I started seeing that voice as a trickster figure that would just say whatever it took to drag me down, instead of a Speaker Of Terrible Truths.

bambi-helen.bsky.social•4 days ago

If you're still in touch with that therapist, say thank you from an internet stranger. And thanks to you, too. I'll do my best to remember it.

fionnuisce.bsky.social•4 days ago

If it helps; seeing my depression as a wounded part of myself also let me have some compassion for it (for me). I could hear the nasty things it had to say without shutting it down, understand what it was saying wasn't true but felt true to it (to me), forgive it and let it pass.

timclare.bsky.social•4 days ago

Well, it uses half truths, doesn't it. If it fully lied ('you are a fuschia dinosaur') it would be easy to refute. But much of human existence *is* sad, the world has injustice, we do have flaws & the future does contain sadnesses. It's just that's not the whole story.

wangleberry.bsky.social•4 days ago

Well, it was a rhetorical personification, but yes. A lie of omission.

timclare.bsky.social•4 days ago

I suppose I make the distinction not to be pedantic but because sometimes (often, even) the sadnesses someone deals with while depressed amplify out of real things, like bereavements, lost dreams, trauma, etc. So it's tricky because the events are true, but the conclusions are questionable.

cyber-wil.bsky.social•4 days ago

Still fall for it every MF time.

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