maybe everyone feels this way at the end of their PhD or maybe I am just not able to trick myself that this degree will mean anything under this current admin without extra neurotransmitter float, you know? idk. thoughts welcome, I'm struggling to do anything these days except cry, lift, and sleep. - ThreadSky

itativcs.bsky.social • 19 days ago

maybe everyone feels this way at the end of their PhD or maybe I am just not able to trick myself that this degree will mean anything under this current admin without extra neurotransmitter float, you know? idk. thoughts welcome, I'm struggling to do anything these days except cry, lift, and sleep.

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piranha24.bsky.social•19 days ago

Do what makes you feel even a tiny bit better. 💔

itativcs.bsky.social•19 days ago

I took a nap tbh

catlikesdonuts.bsky.social•19 days ago

FINISH IT GET OUT!!!!! I don’t need meds anymore because my environment did a full 180 for the better

itativcs.bsky.social•19 days ago

also: get out but academia themed is 100% how I feel rn

catlikesdonuts.bsky.social•19 days ago

You WILL get out i believe in u so much, u will do so much good

itativcs.bsky.social•19 days ago

I promise I am trying but like each word is like pulling a tooth

cassiefreund.bsky.social•19 days ago

It's a small thing but one trick that sometimes works to pick up writing momentum easily is to stop writing mid-thought or mid-paragraph when take a break, so when you return you know exactly what to type. It helps your brain get over the hump of starting.

cassiefreund.bsky.social•19 days ago

You can write the rest of the sentence/paragraph down elsewhere if you think you'll forget. But sometimes just the simple act of typing a few things on the page right away becomes real momentum. I know dissertationing is really hard especially given the state of the world but you can do this!

shaunoboyle.bsky.social•19 days ago

I found the end of my PhD very difficult, and I can only imagine what it would be like doing it now. If you ever need someone to listen / encourage, let me know.

itativcs.bsky.social•19 days ago

Just very much struggling with how futile it feels! I churned out a 97k word silly little story in 6 months but writing a single chapter of my thesis given the state of things feels like an impossible task and YES I wish I had been writing WAY earlier so that this fresh hell wasn't such wall.

itativcs.bsky.social•19 days ago

sorry that was a lot

gayroller.bsky.social•19 days ago

I suspect Shaun would agree with me that you don't need to apologise.

He offered to listen. I haven't done a PhD, but based on knowing more PhDs than I can conveniently count, the most important quality is stubbornness. It may feel like a pyrrhic victory, but it will be yours.

shaunoboyle.bsky.social•19 days ago

no, I really relate. I used to use my creative projects as a reward after doing some work. But now I start with the creative thing, because I enjoy it and I'm productive - then I try and use that momentum, even for an hour, to get through some of my work writing.

itativcs.bsky.social•19 days ago

copy pasting this into a sticky note on my computer, thank you

shaunoboyle.bsky.social•19 days ago

You'll definitely be able to do it. I was also very lucky that my university (in Ireland) gave me 6 free therapy sessions when I was writing up. I don't think many people have access to that now, which is a shame.

passeriform.bsky.social•19 days ago

Please, also, eat. And bathe. Ideally with nice-smelling soaps.

itativcs.bsky.social•19 days ago

I actually can't remember when I washed my hair last, so I guess I will add this to my itinerary for today.

passeriform.bsky.social•19 days ago

It really does help. So annoying. I hope your bathroom is warm.

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