In the end it's good to hear that you can draw a line and won't continue to put yourself through that, just to please others.

That's sad to hear, love your art. But if it doesn't give you any joy anymore there is really no point. Maybe you'll develop a healthier relationship to creating art in the future, but for now I hope you can get that stuff out of your mind and maybe find something more fulfilling.

I hope I'm not too late!