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beingb.bsky.social
Data person, on the spectrum, generalized anxiety disorder, immigrant 🩷💜💙 & 🖤🩶🤍💜 Dublin 🇮🇪
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This has been my work philosophy for the past five years and I am here to tell you it works great.

I have ordered some Murderbot paperbacks for my autistic brother who likes sci-fi and had never heard of the series. Hopefully he can overcome his distaste for sci-fi with FTL and give them a try!

Brief respite ✨️

"They're trying to make me Have Feelings! And everyone can see! This is the worst thing that could possibly hapen." -Is it me, or is it Murderbot? 😂

Reflections on emotional overcontrol: Apparently most people don't feel sick and angry when watching Christmas specials. To me, watching A Charlie Brown Christmas or Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer or even sitcom Christmas specials feels like having my skin slowly removed with a potato peeler.

My new diagnosis is kind of funny given the debut of the Murderbot show and the Murderbot re-read I've been doing. My new diagnosis (or at least current problem to work on) is emotional overcontrol, which-- I mean, yeah, it me? And also Murderbot. Thus funny.

This means I keep my multidisciplinary team, access to all the training and any therapeutic courses they think are relevant, medication support, and I'm starting weekly meetings with a therapist next week. I just don't have to sleep in an uncomfortable bed with a bright green LED giving me rage.

Okay, so I'm getting out of the mental hospital and into home care, which is what I asked for in the first place! So yay! Also I have a new diagnosis, sort of. #talesfromtheMentalHospital

Two nights in a row of insomnia and I’m sooooooo tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiirrreeeedddddddd…

For each solid square, the quilting pattern will be a simple shape I draw (so far, a butterfly and a flower) with echo quilting around the image. For the patterned squares, I dunno yet!

Decided to quilt the quilt (egads that's clunky, is there a better way?) on a square-by-square basis, with the solid squares quilted in white so the contrast shows up on the top, and the patterned squares quilted in navy, so the contrast shows up on the back. Will it be good? Who knows! #quiltsky

Fascinating and nuanced.

Video taken from the cutest little red bridge. In a few places the paint has worn off, showing it used to be bright blue.

My walk today in Lucan.

Can confirm.

Take the fictional characters quiz and post the first four you know:

My fav new patch: www.etsy.com/ie/listing/6...

In my quest to look more polished I have embraced the fact that my ear piercings close up superfast and most metals irritate, so I got a set of slim titanium “sleep in” hoops and just never take ‘em off. Little bit of earring, 0 daily effort.

Took a break today from quilting sewing to sew six new patches to my backpack! They are hella cute.

David Hockney #art #painting #painters #BlueSkyArt

Oh god, I would rather go for an eight mile walk in the rain than answer these questions. Yet answer them I apparently must. #talesfromtheMentalHospital

I have made a quilt top! 100% hand sewn, using fabric scraps and pieces from old clothes. If Mr. Beingb remembers to bring me an old sheet on his visit today, I’ll be able to put the layers together and start quilting. #talesfromtheMentalHospital

What now? I’m not sure. But I’m glad I don’t have to do CBT, that shit is really fucking tedious. #talesfromtheMentalHospital

My key line was “I’m used to doing things that make me anxious.” Clinical anxiety disorders assume the person is actively avoiding their anxiety triggers. Turns out being anxious all the time is a sign that the problem isn’t an anxiety disorder at all.

Guess who has two thumbs and just got fired from Anxiety Class? Apparently CBT isn’t helpful if you already approach the things that make you anxious. #talesfromtheMentalHospital

Turns out I’m allergic to this fucking hospital. Fuck everything. (Dust mites.) #talesfromtheMentalHospital

Hey #gamessky, recs for a phone game that plays like Stardew Valley or Dave the Diver?

My new psychiatrist hates my mom. She’s sharp— it usually takes more sessions before they catch on. #talesfromtheMentalHospital

Gonna be stopping Wellbutrin then starting up venlafaxine (Effexor in the US) a few days later while stopping Sertraline. Could be a rough couple of weeks. Reminder to future self: everything is fine, watch Star Trek, hydrate and wait it out. #talesfromtheMentalHospital