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bencrellin.bsky.social
I make spreadsheets that help people navigate the FPL schedule - on a run if six consecutive top 10k finishes - Partnered with @FFH_HQ Win at FPL: https://bit.ly/3Jwl3Hu
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Feeling more my like myself after a run today. I was so manic last week, and then so low after the meltdown. Being in a car for 9 hours and not being able to sleep on the journey was the worst way to recover. The conversation with my grandma about autism was way easier than I’d built it up to be.

submitted 1 day ago • 2 comments

Everything caught up with me on Thursday and I had a meltdown for the first time since my Dad died. I was still in an oversharing mood so I recorded an 8 min solo video to let off steam and share my meltdown story! Couldn’t work out how to post it here so I shred it with 300k people on twitter 😳

submitted 2 days ago • 5 comments

If I was truly trying to minimise anxiety in my life like I said in my announcement post then I wouldn’t have picked up sourdough as a hobby. I freaked out when I mixed the dough; it felt weird and I thought the high humidity had doomed the batch from the start. This might be my best batch!

submitted 4 days ago • 7 comments

I don’t like people telling me: “We all knew you were autistic” in response to my announcement. It makes me fee stupid, and it makes me think I shouldn’t bother trying to raise awareness about autism because everyone already knows all about it.

submitted 4 days ago • 13 comments

I always aim for 8 hours’ sleep and will almost always get it if I’m undisturbed. Since I realised I’m autistic I’ve woken up after 6 hours (apart from the one day I woke up after 30 mins). Does my body value being awake and doing autism research/introspection over recovering from a cold? 😕

submitted 4 days ago • 4 comments

I keep making sense of things in my current life as well as things from the past. I’m nocturnal because I need alone time, even though I’ve lived with my parents for 15 years. Life was too anxiety-inducing if I shared the same hours as them.

submitted 4 days ago • 3 comments

Seems like most people with level 1 autism hate some forms of communication and like others. I’ve realised that when talking to one person, I hate DMing and I really like phone calls. Before today, I think I hadn’t had a proper phone conversation with someone my own age in over a decade.

submitted 4 days ago • 1 comment

I’m amazed that I managed to write the first tweet. I was in a flow state, and it’s almost like I’m a different person when I’m in that state and I lose track of time. I wrote the 2nd tweet because it took me an extra day to process the home trauma; it was buried deeper than the bullying trauma

submitted 4 days ago • 1 comment

Autistic people should get a discount when having to pay to remove adverts. My life has been calmer since I payed for YouTube premium - but I resisted paying for it for ages

submitted 4 days ago • 6 comments

My current favourite autism video: youtu.be/3mBbOOzhoGQ?... I love people with autism (that doesn’t mean I don’t love people without autism)

submitted 5 days ago • 3 comments

I’m in a calmer mood today after a better night’s sleep. I’m curious to know what percentage of my social media followers would have as little knowledge about autism as I had a couple of weeks ago…

submitted 5 days ago • 6 comments

I have autism, I’ve only just found out I have autism, I have a cold and I’m extremely sleep-deprived. It’s a heady mix. It’s no wonder I’m in an oversharing mood!

submitted 6 days ago • 1 comment

I can see now that being brought up as a Christian and going to church and church youth group really helped me as a kid. But I no longer needed any of that after I found poker and a close group of friends at uni

submitted 6 days ago • 1 comment

One minor thing that I’ve just realised today is that my parents refusing to let me and my brother have a normal games console probably denied me a chance to experience some joy as an autistic kid. I loved my GameBoy and I loved my GameCube for a while. I’ve never had an Xbox or a Play Station

submitted 6 days ago • 5 comments

If you're still on twitter, I'd like you to read the two big posts I've written on autism. If you aren't on twitter, here are the 1.4k words that I wrote copied into a google doc docs.google.com/document/d/1...

submitted 6 days ago • 18 comments

I’m disappointed I couldn’t give the ENG vs IND cricket test match my full attention when it was exciting. I had it on the TV, but I was glued to my phone because of all the autism stuff! And buzzing from the reactions to a tweet I sent about autism last night meant I only got 30 mins’ sleep 😬

submitted 6 days ago • 2 comments

I’m going to start today by having 45g of porridge oats instead of 62g 😮 I’ve been having 62g oats + 10g linseeds/chia + 320g water for years

submitted 6 days ago • 1 comment

I have a cold, and today I’ve lost my appetite (I can’t remember the last time this happened) But I’m autistic, and I’m following my normal routine of trying to eat the same amount of food day. It’s jarring!

submitted 7 days ago • 4 comments

I found examples of me being hyper sensitive to sounds and light but couldn’t think of an example of me reacting to smells… I’ve just remembered this question that I asked the AMT podcast 11 years ago! I’m looking forward to playing this clip in my autism assessment!! @helenzaltzman.bsky.social

submitted 7 days ago • 3 comments

Are there any other Blankies who follow me here? I'm so happy that this episode is nearly 3 hours long and is here already (I was expecting it next week)

submitted 7 days ago • 1 comment