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Musician, barista, business owner. I’m easy to get along with if you are honest. I can be intense (and too straightforward) but never with ill intention.
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I really do believe in accountability and the pursuit of it. However, to believe that is all that plays a role in how a situation turns out would be naive. In the court of public opinion, being a man automatically makes you the likely culprit. And I get that, honestly.

I was told someone who hurt me was hurting other men in the same way, and one of the victims leaked her nudes. Like, seriously dude? Way to wreck your own argument and leave men in an even worse position. All you had to do was show the texts.

It's possible to call out a woman without being misogynistic, by the way. Dunno why it's so hard for people to understand that.

Why would I ask for help when no one really cares?

Might be having a panic attack. I don’t know yet, something isn’t right.

Sudden sinking feeling.

Compassion and empathy are essential. But you aren’t forced to give it freely. Not in a transactional way, rather knowing when a person isn’t worthy of those virtues from you.

Raspberries and sugar left in a mason jar overnight for some syrupy goodness. A few drops on top of my cappuccino and there you go. It's so fucking good.

The part I dislike about y’all using the phrase ^check on your friends^ after someone dies, is no one actually engages when you do ask for help. It’s just shit you tell yourselves to not feel guilty for bailing on someone who needed you.

youtube.com/watch?v=LV15... Vera Farmiga in a goth metal band wasn’t on my 2025 bingo card.

I'm going to try Bumble's most expensive subscription for one month, to prove the point I've been making for years: I'm just ugly.

Odds of suicide are rising, in case you want to place a bet.

When I say I don't matter, it's because I've never been made to feel like I matter.

I’m not a man of fantasies. But this would be a nice change for me.

Dreamt bout one of my first loves. Can’t imagine how my life would’ve turned out if we had worked, or if I had never met her.

I feel very represented.

2.24am, disassociating and starved for a warm embrace.

When I say I don't matter, it's because I've never been made to feel like I matter.

Maybe I'm dead wrong and something in me is irreparably broken.

I wanted to matter to those I care about. It's not a sin, it's not wrong to want that.

And I let SO MUCH SHIT slide, I swear. Felt like since I'm *less than*, I must keep quiet and move on. For example, the person I considered my best friend for years (long distance), suddenly vanished for around a year. I blamed myself for months, I really fucking suffered.

I say that because the emotional patterns I've followed for years are clearly flawed. There's no point in chasing people around. They can say they care, they can claim anything. Showing it, however, requires more than words.

The value of therapy is being able to look at wrongdoing without judgement and damnation as the intrinsic reaction. Doesn't always work, of course.

First Bumble match in ages: Her: hi, how are you? Me: hi there, I’m doing okay. How about you? 3 hours pass. Me: could you tell me a little about yourself? An hour passes. *unmatched* So yeah, I don’t get what the fuck is wrong with women on this app.

What’s Yr Fav Dinosaur?

I can own up to my bullshit. Can you?

Okay cool. Fuck you, too.

What could this be?

This is not suggestive, it’s a body.

I don’t follow enough Wagon Wednesday practitioners.

Another hospital visit soon, if this doesn’t get better.

Fuck. Stop thinking. Stop thinking.

I’m not going to text. I’m not going to ask for help. Repeating that over and over.

I mean, heat of the moment is understandable. It's the normalization of demeaning, violent, invasive acts in order to get off. If you gotta get roughed up to cum, you got a problem.

Maybe I'm weird that way, but I don't think dirty talk means you gotta call each other awful things. You can be very naughty without calling your partner a slut or whore. I just don't believe demeaning should be endorsed as a pleasurable thing.