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“Why do you refuse to speak to me? Your hand is alluring, but I only ask to hear your voice. We both know what it is that you desire, and you cannot do me the courtesy of responding. You still do not care, do you? Mother loves me, and you… you never could. Lady Sariel…”

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“You tore me to pieces. You watched on as the construction of my innards were on the verge of being ripped from their vessel. Yet you still held yourself in grace. Your touch was an aspect I appreciated during my service to you. Can I fall into your arms again, Lady Sariel…?”

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“All it takes is one moment of weakness. One second of indecision, or misinformed choice… and then it is all over. I have stated that only Mother gets to choose my end. I want this to be true, but it still requires me to fight. Lady Sariel's embrace is… still graceful…”

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// Love you all still. Back soon. Promise. I love her more than ever.

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“Do you remember, Lady Sariel, when you held me over oblivion originally? It was meant to be motivation. A reason to go further for Mother and you, because oblivion is what would happen if I did not. I was scared then. I still am, but… I know how to kill weakness.”

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“We love, even though we know that the end awaits us. We care, even though death threatens all around us. This moment may be temporary, but its marking into history is eternal. You may die. That does not mean you should not appreciate what you have. Mother is my drive.”

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“She refuses to speak to me. She is right in front of me. Those eyes of hers, the ones that observed my every failure and lambasted me for each one… Those eyes that saw me bleed in my service and training, as cold and unfeeling as they always have been. Please, Lady Sariel…”

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// Really sorry. Creativity juice is struggling hard right now. Trying to eke it out, but tough. Will be here when I can be. Love you all.

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“She comes. I feel her presence, and its ever crushing influence can never be ignored. Oblivion approaches, and I hold myself against the wall as firmly as I can. It cannot be my time… I have not submitted to Death's entrancing embrace…”

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“Rarely have I felt mortal. I have always acknowledged that I could die and be lost to Mother, yet I always shunned it. I refused to perish! I destroyed all that brought me to the brink before! It keeps coming. My body expels more of its lifeforce, and all I can do is watch.”

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“I hacked up blood. It turned dark, and then fizzled away while I watched it in the palm of my hand. It is not getting better. None of it is.”

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“The world is hazy. My senses are dull, and the depths of Pandemonium seem unreachable. I keep pushing, but I know that it is making it worse. I will still keep going. My body has not given in completely, so there is still energy to be found going forwards. I must…”

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“I feel… unwell. I do not feel this way often. My body is resilient, and demonkind does not fall to the same ills as the worlds beyond. The stress may be getting to me. Still, there is no time to lament over it. Service does not end on my accord, and I still have duties.”

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// Going to be trying to get to replies today later on. Sorry to everyone I've kept waiting so far. Love you, love Yume. ❤️

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“Sometimes you perform an action that you know hurts someone else. They tell you that it is fine, and their smile holds itself sturdy… And then, when they believe you cannot tell, it wanes. I almost asked her if she would want to tear my blades from me. …It would do little.”

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“Ego will cause you to lose battles that you should have managed to settle within seconds. Do not hold back. Do not wait to be pushed to the wall before going 'all out'. Be flexible, but know to put your heart into every encounter. All it takes is one failure to lose it all.”

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“The fact that Mother's love can extend to all of Makai is a miracle. Even those that look down upon her, she cares for and wishes that she could support them the same as all Makaijin. I am a small portion in her total capacity for love, yet she still makes me feel special. ❤️”

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// Love you all even if I'm drowning in replies and can't get to things quickly. Yume is always busy, so I guess I have no excuse. Stay safe everyone. ❤️

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“Destiny. Every action that I took… was it fated? That would suggest that there was not a possibility of my success during the incident; I do not know if I am comfortable with that. If I ever find out that fate insists I perish, then I will shatter it. Whatever it takes.”

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“Mother is visiting the central populace today, and I was invited to come with her. An offer, not a demand. By Vina, I do not want this to be commonplace. I know why it was not imposed, and it must be improved. Mother, I would follow you into the jaws of oblivion. I promise.”

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// Please reply here if you would like to figure out something to write together. ❤️

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// Please reply here if you would like to figure out something to write together. ❤️

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“Mother already retired to her bedroom, so I am alone again. When you are walking through Pandemonium like this, sometimes your thoughts project themselves upon the walls. I see more Mother and Alice, and their smiles plastered across the surface I hope they see mine as well.”

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“I was musing earlier on whether I should replace the bedsheets of Pandemonium with emerald-coloured ones. It would be unique as I have never used that scheme, and I sometimes like the change in perspective… it is as if it affects my soul as well. Well, only with approval.”

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“Those that oppose us are still too scattered. That is why I have crushed every rebellion in the past without ever being concerned. One may believe that is to my benefit, but provides little evidence that Mother is the absolute faith. I must decimate them at their strongest.”

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“I thought training would assist in the release of tension. When your soul is awry, danmaku is difficult to focus on. That is what I must overcome. If my spirit falters, I must pierce through and maintain my offenses at all times. The stress still persists despite this. Mm…”

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“I had that dream again. The one where I am floating downwards into the void; I reach out to grip Mother's ever-fading arm as I go deeper, deeper… A cruel reminder that joy is temporary. I can always rely on my thoughts to 'ground' me if I am too elated. …Curse it…”

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“Hah. Too busy to sing Mother's praises… I am not resentful at all. I love being as occupied as I am, though I am always wanting to champion the cause of Our Queen, Lady Shinki. ❤️ I am truly jubilant. Every moment is taken by service… that is the greatest form of prayer.”

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