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—﹙🕊️﹚#edsky / #caterpillarsky | chronic blogger he / they • twenty two ! high sw + bedrotting — tw ed diary .ᐟ need to be pretty + skinny for severus ₊˚ʚ 🌱 - ☁️ cw : too fat • bmi : 23 • ugw : 40kg ✘ — minors + non edsky ! block if not #edsky
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really really don’t want to be here

im so fat and i hate myself for it. I hate myself

does this look like it makes sense? will it help me to loose weight ? like or am I just overthinking this entire thing. i am determined to loose as much weight as i can … so im trying to figure it out properly

asking potentially a dumb question abt cal deficits ! if i eat 1300, do I have to actively burn it to loose the weight ? or does it count as cals burnt during the day naturally??? so say if i burn 2000+ cals without exercising am i okay??? #caterpillarsky

i hate eds

feel like nothings real n it’s 3am n aaah

but like im fat , people say im small but im fat????

just wanna be small + tiny. don’t wanna be ‘average’ anymore.

ate under 1300 today so yay ! burnt nearly 1000 too — so we are locking back in !

dinner — any idea of cal estimate ?? curry & rice !! ❤️✉️🪴

meant to weigh this morning … but on my period so i can’t + idk how much i weigh + it’s really stressing me out

walked 7048 steps + burnt 399 cals so yay !

leftovers for lunch !! 114g rice , 128g noodles ( thinks it’s about 450 cals ) anyone know if that’s abt accurate???

wish i could ☆v all the way to d3/at/h

it’s my mums bday today n i just ordered a lot of food as part of her bday present + and im so so anxious abt it but AAAAAH ( it’ll be my last like treat thing for a while me thinks ) but terrified tbf.

going to restrict as much as I can this week — but also be a lil lax on what I eat bc my period is the worst it’s been in a long time … hopefully today will be the worst …

anyone got finch ?! going to try and actually stick with it this time ! 🧐🙂‍↔️ my code is ! A95G99M1X7 ( if y’all wanna become finch friends — Otto needs more people to hang out with !! ) #caterpillarsky

I really wish i could recover and do the right thing and be healthy but i will never be satisfied w my body

disgusted w myself today but I burnt 796 cals ( ate 1609 so it doesn’t really cancel it out but AAH )

on so much painkillers today. only able to walk when the painkillers kick in. this sucks sm. eaten sm and probably going to eat more tn. but that means I eat all my snacks before next week kinda thing which will be good !

my cramps are so bad ( I just had to run to Lidl twice to go and get bunches of flowers for my mums birthday tomorrow + I’m exhausted and so so sore ) but good news burnt like 350 cals !

I’m so hungry bc of my period - feel i may have to up my cals slightly which i hate. but aah we will see. eaten nearly 500 cals already + it’s not even 12pm.

debating trying to walk 10k today or if I should just break my month walking cycle … aah.

started my period , so yay - but also a lot of cramps so :/ kinda bad too.

gonna try to eat less than 1000 daily if I can — 1300 at a push kinda as I need to lose weight quickly

think the company is the worst episode to come back too on a cm rewatch after not watching it for a while … like so sad

i have only burnt 643 actively today — eaten 1348 , so not the best but not the worst + I’m too tired to walk anymore , my body physically hurts.