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Plasma Whorrorshow (Jason)
33 y/o Autistic Metalhead making a RPG about an autistic metalhead
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Currently Working on "Goetika" and "Finder and Show"
https://plasmawhorrorshow.neocities.org/
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I've tried a few other engines too, but none of them had the options and flexibility I want.
So- I just stalled out.
But I feel motivated again. I'm gonna start looking at stuff in GameMaker again and I think I understand a way to find a solution to my problem now.
But- ugh.
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But that, plus other people for some reason quietly discouraging me in the comments? When this project was a life raft for me at the time?
...It just shattered all of my motivation.
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A good metaphor would be me trying to learn what a shoelace is while somebody is saying that I'm not willing to learn how to tie my shoes.
With distance and better mental health, it's ridiculous. It shouldn't have impacted me as much as it did.
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Unfortunately all I took was one guy doubling down in the comments, determined that I was unwilling to put hard work in... When I was simply asking for directions on how to do said hard work.
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It's hard to explain the nuances, but I was not in a good headspace at the time. It was when my burnout symptoms were really beginning to settle in and my mental health was beginning to really decline.
It's hard for me to ask for help when I'm at my best, let alone where I was mentally then.
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It's no exaggeration that my game project has been in a weird limbo state for about a year because of the input these people gave me and how actively detrimental it was to my project.
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But honestly? Me simply reaching out to the GameMaker subreddit was such a shitshow on my end that it literally drove me away from trying to learn GameMaker for a while.
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Like- I have put A LOT of time and effort over the past 4 months or so learning RPG Maker and learning its strengths and limitations and more and more coming to the realization that its not a good fit for Goetika.
It's just too inflexible for me.
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THAT'S EXACTLY THE VIBE I GET ACTUALLY
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Love iceberg lettuce on nachos, always have.
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Yeah- like he's obviously on a different plane of reality from both us and the Deltarune universe, so him thinking of us/"The Player" the same way we think of The Fun Gang makes sense to me?
I'm really interested to see where all this religious symbolism goes, too.
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What if WE are "his Deltarune"?
What if when he said that, he was referring to us with an affectionate nickname we just don't have context for, because we're not at that point of the story yet?
Just like how I refer to my own favorite characters sometimes?
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So... What if Gaster is forming that level of parasocial fictional affection that we have for our favorite characters, but for the player?
What if WE are somehow Gaster's favorite little blorbo from his experiments?
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Deltarune is playing with metatext as a concept and the idea of having friends that "aren't real" "in another world" really ties into how many people engage with fiction emotionally?
And Gaster is on a different level of reality then both us AND the Fun Gang.
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Diagetically? Deltarune is a program. A program only has certain routes and certain outcomes that can happen. It's a static thing that WE are interacting with.
The players are the variables in this experiment, not the survey program itself.
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I mean think about it. He first distributed this game as a "survey program" that countless people are interacting with, so he has countless options and timelines and alternate paths to watch and rewatch....
Just like how I watch streamers and let's players play the same game over and over.
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Thank you!
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You seriously cant make this shit up
A law enforcement officer points a taser at a person wearing a hot dog costume during a protest Saturday, June 14, 2025, in Portland, Ore. (AP Photo/Jenny Kane)
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Ugh-
I still have a part of myself that very much wants to just curl up and not exist and not do anything because the thought of working makes me feel sick... But that's just not an option today. I got bills.
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Like...
I literally woke up in the middle of a panic attack and I've been trying to manage it all day and I feel like I wanna cry from frustration and the panic attack itself and just.... FUCK, MAN.
I used to feel this bad nearly EVERY day!
... I was literally killing myself from burnout, huh.
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I can feel myself getting better slowly, but it's really rough sometimes. It's like I'm subconsciously making myself sick and I hate it.
It literally got so bad I got misdiagnosed with GERD.
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Also- we all know MTT is all about legs. He's ABSOLUTELY not gonna be normal about this.
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Also sorry if it's cropped a little weird?
This is formatted for a webtoon style reading experience and because of how the panels flow into each other it's really hard to figure out where to crop this to post on here...