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Stylishly & straightforwardly feminine. Geeky, techy sort of woman, 57 (it's probably the estradiol). Ardeni Lakam is my Isabel. Writes, but can't sight read, music. Plays piano a bit. T1D. Single & pan. UK.
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Drag king, Will Power, at Cambridge Pride this afternoon

Capybar-ace and trans-asaurus

Anti-trans narratives are anti-autonomy narratives. They are anti-woman to the core. They*need* to define women within the narrowest, inescapable parameters so that they can impose reduced rights and enforce behaviours. This is why they keep banging on about "sex-based rights".

Trans-osaurus

It's going to be a hot day. On the bus to Cambridge.

What I'm wearing to the ball (Cambridge Pride)

Two gay fans without gay fans and it's really hot.

My latest posts are about resilience and survival. Yeah, I'm impacted by trauma, and it influences who I am and how I am. Ardeni is who I had the potential to be. My female role model when I was 11. And, fuck me, she is still there in my head. Still surviving. Still hopeful.

CW sexual assault I've seen some discourse about sexual desire in trans women. It's something I think about a lot because I don't have any. But I used to. My desire changed with transition, but it was a thrilling journey to go on.

Ardeni is pain and rage and empathy and love. She is Ishtar and Inanna. She is the traumatised child with the power to turn the world to dust but she just smiles and holds out her hand. She has lived in my head since I was 11 years old, burying every darkness. She is the heart of me. I am Ardeni.

In my head, I don't look like this. Dysphoria has retreated inside where it still festers and whispers but it has no power over the reality that this is who I am. A selfie is a celebration.

It's been one of those days when I listen to Hi Ren and let myself cry. In a good way. And I go by many names also Some people know me as "hope" Some people know me as the voice that you hear When you loosen the noose on the rope

I love it when my daughter visits from Sheffield...

Deciding what to watch. Fate/Zero I think...

They say the pen is mightier than the sword, but the sword is mightier than the penis.

Trans peeps quote with a pic of yourself that you love

Today's adventure was Anglesey Abbey, which is neither in Anglesey nor is it an Abbey.

This rose is so beautiful. I want these in my garden.

Aisle 7 for glassware, ceramics, cutlery and cursed dolls

Had a conversation with someone today about headphones. I said I was going to buy some new earbuds to replace my broken ones. She said she likes her Sony WH1000X phones. Not suggesting Google is listening to private conversations... but Google is definitely listening to private conversations.

Shopkeeper: Hello, how may I help you today. Me: I'm looking for a statue of a dog wearing a recency style coat with a fancy necktie and stuffed into a glass cone, like he's the ice cream in a cornetto. Shopkeeper: I think I have exactly what you want...

Estate agent was showing people around my house today so I went out... But not before I'd carefully positioned my dalek to look as menacing as possible.

I remember this time. There was a period of about three months when I was subject to drive-by transphobia. It happened three times: people hanging out of their cars to yell abuse as they drove past. Then... It stopped. Permanently.