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system-nine.bsky.social
#dissociativeidentitydisorder Was covert for 50+ years, was then able to think about my system for about a year and a half. Did some discovery and healing and am now integrated. Willing to share my experience. 60 years old cis male (He, Him)
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I was thinking about my system this morning. My alter, Seer has a plan to bring us all together. Gatekeeper wanted to know if we were going to force Survivor to join us and we said no. Gatekeeper then joined us since that was what he was guarding against.

submitted 44 days ago • 1 comment

Wow. I was not expecting to find a little in my system. He was really hiding well. Our friend spotted him, we were totally unaware of him. We saw him when he said goodbye to our friend today. We gave him a toy car, he loves it. I thought I had my system just about figured out...

submitted 47 days ago • 1 comment

I just have one more sibling to talk to about my DID. I have had very good conversations with the other 9. I do need to check back in with them because they are worrying about me. But I am actually doing a lot better than I have in the past (not that I was doing badly in the past).

submitted 50 days ago • 1 comment

So I have an alter that I call Seer. I have been aware of him for a while but I have a hard time accepting him. My problem is that I believe everything has a rational explaination. Seer believes in the paranormal and has had something to say for a while.

submitted 52 days ago • 1 comment

How do you deal with alters that have different beliefs from yours? I am not spiritual, I don't believe in things that defy rational explanations. But, part of me does. I feel I have to accept all of myself to heal. It doesn't help that he has made predictions in the past that have come true.

submitted 53 days ago • 3 comments

I think that in the past I have had access to all of my mental facilities but there was extra work going on to keep my system hidden. Now I still feel like myself but things are easier? There isn't the extra cost of the work by my alters to keep everything hidden.

submitted 53 days ago • 2 comments

Since I have begun thinking about my DID I have been aware of some self-protection mechanisms that I didn't control. One was that anytime I would think about how my mind works it would lose its emotional content, become an unreal daydream, and it would fade to nothing.

submitted 54 days ago • 1 comment

I am a lot more aware of my alters (at least the ones that aren't still hiding). I have an alter Maker, that might be multiple different, very similar ones, not sure. Cooking, carpentry, gardening, I shift and become very focused and efficient. I am very motivated when merged with them.

submitted 58 days ago • 0 comments