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Defining my brand of the queer agenda in Philly. #transisbeautiful ♋️🏳️‍⚧️🇵🇷🏳️‍🌈
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I do not have the emotional bandwidth to mask today so work has been a vibe. Glad I’ll be spending the afternoon alone on mail. 🫠

This photo from last night looks like a still used in an advert for a BBC drama from 2004 (complimentary)

Being at a party filled with film aficionados when “Anora” was announced as best picture was truly an otherworldly experience.

Demi Moore losing to Mikey Madison should be a post-credits scene to The Substance.

Headed to an Oscar watch party. Fingers crossed it’s a good night for my picks.

He’s saved my life more times than I can count and he’s better than I deserve. I am so incredibly grateful for my chosen family continuing to show up for me despite my shortcomings. It’s just what love looks like.

The editing in this episode of severance better win them an Emmy.

Lots of conversations today. Lots of thoughts on ways to start healing again. Tomorrow we start over.

Jk. The texts about my behavior are coming in. The apology tour has begun. 🫠

I had greasy breakfast potatoes and an enormous veggie omelette. I will now return to sleeping until I feel my dignity may return to me.

Sobriety clock is back at 0. Last night was definitely not worth it. Ugh.

I’m silent when I ride in an Uber/Lyft and I can never tell if the drivers love or hate this but I’m on the way to a function and my autistic self can’t expend the energy on a stranger. If I’m in a car it’s because your girl is already stressed from being very late! 🫠

I put on a fresh face of makeup after leaving work. If there isn’t a hot queer to flirt with at this DragRace watch party I will riot*! *Politely sit and watch this program with my amazing friend who’s the best of hosts.

As someone who finds navigating technology very inorganic, learning new systems at work is truly the worst part of getting into a new job. I can learn 10,000 facts and rattle them off without effort but if I need to navigate two tabs at once I’m done.

My favorite thing about men is that without fail if you ask/tell a man about more than one thing in the same text you are getting a response to an unexpected third thing that you didn’t mention at all. It’s a magic of its own kind tbh.

A sign of intellect is the ability to change your mind in the face of new facts. A mark of wisdom is refusing to let the fear of admitting you were wrong stop you from getting it right. The joy of learning something new eventually exceeds the pain of unlearning something old.

Today I finally got something I’d been waiting for. I thought it would complete me. It turns out I grew beyond that small dream long ago.

Lots of shakeup on the friendship front for me right now. I’m grateful for the clarity my sobriety brings as I navigate this season. It’s tough feeling isolated going through it all but there is a peace to knowing I’m fully aware of myself as I proceed through this rough patch.

I made an epic pasta so good that not even the Carbone sauce in a jar could fuck it up. Maybe she’s her own chef? 💅🏽

If my homelessness has taught me anything it’s that I’m never alone and that’s a beautiful feeling.

Someone I thought could be a potential work buddy misgendered me all through lunch. It’s a small disappointment but also a simple sign to know when I’m safe. The universe guides us in interesting ways.

Katy going to space in Jeff’s rocket? She is so very cooked.

NEWS FLASH 🎇 There are autistic people who have significant supports needs. There are autistic people with learning disabilities. There are autistic people who struggle more than others. There are autistic people who were abused for having an early diagnosis. We aren’t all LSNHM influencers

I’m in a “safety foods” era right now and this particular intersection of being a foodie and being autistic is honestly brilliant for me.

Me to drivers: “You should take transit and stop fucking up the planet.” Me when I have to wait for SEPTA after work: “Fuck this city and its useless transit system making me stand here like a peasant.” I’m a woman. I don’t have to make sense. 😋

I walked to grab lunch in my cotton sweater and no jacket. Climate change is real but it’s so beautifully sunny I’ll take the win in 2025!

Karen…

Uber driver is playing Earth, Wind and Fire this morning. It’s a good sign.

It took 5 days of me spiraling to come to the realization that maybe I’m just overstimulated. Big changes are happening during a time when I’m living with a high degree of uncertainty and a lack of ability to recharge. I’m not proud of how I’ve behaved the past few days but I’m doing my best.

I forgot my physical wallet at home and realized that I basically have no regular practical use for it anymore since I use my phone for everything. A weird sensation.

Not even 7am and the street work is ACTIVATED! South Philly I love you but I also love to sleep.

I just tried to have a meaningful conversation with my friend about communication and I got so emotionally overwhelmed I couldn’t form a single coherent thought. The conversation basically ended with him more irritated than when it started. So yeah I’d say my apology tour is going great so far. 🤡

Treating myself to a second cup of coffee because I’ve been up for 11 hours already and I’m still at the office.

I ran into a choir friend making a delivery to my office just now. It was a great way to start the work day with that kind of positive energy. Choosing to focus on the good vibes today because they are coming through plentifully.

Going into this week hoping for a bit of healing after the last few days. The world is a lot and we’re all just doing our best.

I want to buy books but I have nowhere to put them. 😞

Had some solo time bopping about center city today. It was good reminder that I can find fulfillment on my own after all the anxiety around interpersonal skills yesterday. I’m not broken. I’m just human.

Lately I’ve been listening to music I’ve played that I don’t remember very well. Sometimes I’ll get to a section of the piece that has some particularly virtuosic passages and I think to myself “you did that!”. It’s nice to be reminded of my more artistic past.

It’s been advised something I’m doing is rubbing the neurotypicals in our friend group the wrong way. I thought I was doing really well navigating things too so I’m feeling pretty defeated. Reading the room when it doesn’t speak your language is tough. I’m doing my best but life with autism is hard.

Had a day out and about with my best friend. It was perfect. I’m just so grateful for every day. 💛

I love breakup songs, they’re just my vibe, but I must say no song will ever top “Your Type” by Carly Rae Jepsen for me. It’s just so perfect.

I hate Bert’s husband but their kitchen on the other hand? Obsessed!

Merritt Wever should be as booked and busy as Margo Martindale. Truly an all time talent.

Apartment to myself tonight. Finished my Chipotle and I’m about to cue up the new episode of “severance”. Life could be worse. If nothing else, my current homelessness era has taught me how to feel gratitude for so much more than I ever knew.

“No hard feelings” is honestly just a phrase used when the offender knows they are hurting your feelings but they want you to pretend you’re chill. I unfortunately have the spine of a jellyfish so I did indeed pretend to be chill today. 🫠

Update: she’s getting a return so potential housing deposit savings are back on the board for the month of March. Feeling grateful for the win!