wow so it just hurts to concentrate in general. no audiobooks no nothing honestly this is fucking torture - ThreadSky | a Reddit-style client for Bluesky

katewagner.bsky.social • 11 days ago

wow so it just hurts to concentrate in general. no audiobooks no nothing honestly this is fucking torture

Reposted from 🦢 kate wagner 🦢

what am I supposed to do about the fact that now I can’t read without causing myself an excruciating headache? I want to d*e

Comments

hedonistic-demeter.bsky.social•11 days ago

A friend went through the same thing a couple years ago. Recovery took a few months and was rough. She said to avoid screens and anything that requires much thought. Stick to light, fluffy thinking and media consumption. She said it's worth it and can actually lead to interesting new perspectives.

glennjaecks.bsky.social•11 days ago

So sorry

seaweedreport.bsky.social•9 days ago

i know, it’s awful. i listened to a lot of music while painting watercolors (during daylight hours or with dim lights only) while recovering from my concussion. sending u care

briantrumpet.bsky.social•11 days ago

This is classic post-concussion syndrome: concentration will frazzle your brain cells. I'm really sorry you've got it, but you're going to have find a way to step off the treadmill to give your chance for your brain to heal.

briantrumpet.bsky.social•11 days ago

Just because you can't see your injuries doesn't mean they aren't as severe as broken limbs and the like. If anything, brain injury is more severe, as *you* aren't your limbs, but *you* are your brain, and that mysterious and miraculous organ needs to heal in its own time.

briantrumpet.bsky.social•11 days ago

It even hurts when people say "You look well!", when you know your brain is anything but 'well'. There is no magic cure, but not accepting that you have a damaged brain and trying to carry on through it is almost guaranteed to make it worse.

briantrumpet.bsky.social•11 days ago

I hesitate to put this here, but not recognising/accepting this for what it is and taking appropriate action can have terrible consequences. It wouldn't be inaccurate to say that at my lowest I could understand why Kelly Kaitlin took her own life. https://www.bbc.co.uk/sport/cycling/59639369

briantrumpet.bsky.social•11 days ago

"Her father Mark believes his daughter would still be alive had her symptoms, which included depression and anxiety, been recognised as evidence of post-concussion syndrome (PCS). Catlin had suffered several concussions - the crash was not her first - but the link was not made."

briantrumpet.bsky.social•11 days ago

"If it had been, Mark believes, Catlin would have followed guidance to take several weeks' full rest, after which time, in many cases, PCS symptoms ease and patients recover."

palomar-qfwfq.bsky.social•11 days ago

Yes, my housemate had to recover for a few months. She couldn’t be reading or watching things. It is difficult, but if you have these symptoms there is no choice

backslashnap.bsky.social•11 days ago

Are you seeing a specialist? A buddy of mine crashed in a crit one year and had issues for a long time.

katewagner.bsky.social•11 days ago

is this bc they put me on Zoloft or something

hazeldomain.bsky.social•11 days ago

Is the zoloft recent? Med changes made me unable to read sometimes.

katewagner.bsky.social•11 days ago

or bc I’m taking creatine like why are the symptoms worse in the stress free environment

howsyrface.bsky.social•11 days ago

Unfortunately you need to stop *trying* to read or use the computer or phone *at all* for awhile. Every time you post I internally cringe because it is probably prolonging your recovery at the very least. please take care of yourself.

jen.clearingblocks.com•11 days ago

It's still the concussion, if I had to guess. I still have problems with this 1.5 years later; it's lit when your job is reading and writing.

desistundhalt.bsky.social•11 days ago

This is the concussion: not creatine, not zoloft, and not the environment.

Any other injury you would not be confused why you were experiencing its effects, or question its impact on your life; but because the concussion isn't visible it seems like you should be back to normal. You aren't, yet.

desistundhalt.bsky.social•11 days ago

If you tore your bicep, you would not question why you couldn't do bicep curls for your workout; this is a similar scenario. You have a serious soft tissue injury, and until it heals you are going to feel its effects & nothing you do to push the timetable will make that happen faster.

indy.bsky.social•11 days ago

I’ve heard that people can have wildly different side effects from different creatine brands

publicuniversal.bsky.social•11 days ago

is it bad that my reaction to everything now is "put on ethel cain and turn off all the lights"

noralambert.bsky.social•11 days ago

This sounds so miserable, I'm sorry you're dealing with it!

richardbattye.bsky.social•11 days ago

Sounds awful. Rest up, try not to read this rubbish. Here’s a cat

Comment image

ruznovorrah.bsky.social•11 days ago

if it helps a family member of mine has been through similar and unfortunately the answer is mental rest. it WILL get better but to think later you have to not think now

jfrishman.bsky.social•11 days ago

I'm so sorry. I too had a friend struggling with this last year, it definitely took him time, but it got better. I know "have patience" is incredibly annoying advice, but... really hope things turn around for you asap!