Can I just say one of the worst parts about being autistic is when you make a mistake and your brain is like "hurt yourself hurt yourself hurt yourself do it do it do it take that stapler and smash yourself across the skull with it"
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i don't know if this is an autistic thing (or maybe it's an interaction between autism and something else), but either way, even if i can't relate, i feel for ya 🫂
Yeah that's one of the reasons I gravitated towards tattoos and piercings, it feels nice to get stabbed a bunch of times when I'm feeling stressed out instead of hitting my head over and over
This gave me the idea at around 3 or 4 that I should hit myself to stimulate mental performance when the brain doesn't want to work and I've only stopped hitting myself regularly in the last 5 or so years 🙃
For me it's bang the back of my head against the wall. I don't, because I like not having head injuries, but the compulsion is always there after a fuckup. Being raised by a perfectionist didn't help.
literally same here. any time something frustrates me i just go "you fuckin kiddin me right now, the fuck is this shit" or similar in a new york or boston accent, its entirely subconscious too
Yeah...
"Oops, you fucked up that whole situation. Time to lightly bang your head on this glass door for the next five minutes."
My elementary and middle school years were not super great.
that and when something goes bad and every single thing that happens afterwards, no matter how small or inconsequential, makes you feel the rage of a thousand dying suns.
but hey at least i have every bit of lore about warframe memorized
I still worry a lot if I make missteps or rub people the wrong way. Especially so in fandoms and rn, working in the voice actor scene. Even when it comes to asking for help from people I admire, it still makes me anxious as hell. But hey, at least I don't go too far off the deep end.
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Cons- the brain goblins
Cons: goblins
Love being conditioned over the years to think that's what I deserve, too.
thought comes in- "A-" back to normal. Thought comes i- "A-".
Repeat until cooked.
"Oops, you fucked up that whole situation. Time to lightly bang your head on this glass door for the next five minutes."
My elementary and middle school years were not super great.
but hey at least i have every bit of lore about warframe memorized