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My name is Ashley Lauren Spencer. Owner of The Autistic Innovator - a store dedicated to supporting the autistic and neurodivergent community. #AuDHD autisticinnovator.com
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My cat has stage 3 kidney failure, so my 3 old people cats are eating prescription food. It’s $72 for 24 cans. I’m cutting back on my own food spending to afford to feed them. I’ve stopped eating candy, chips, and opt for full meals. My cognition is better eating real food. So silver lining.

I’ve been watching the old show I Dream of Jeannie every night. In 4th grade (1994) I was obsessed with that show. Even got a Halloween costume custom made exactly like hers. I haven’t seen the show since then, so watching it now makes my inner child very happy.

I created this account in 2023 and haven’t made many posts since then. Somehow 1.1k people follow me. So hello everyone! 🙂👋 I’ll try to be on here more.

I think diet has a lot to do with why I struggle so much with cognition. Yesterday for the first time no candy, no food dyes, no snack foods, no cookies, just full meals with substance every few hours all day. My brain was clear, fast, energetic, polar opposite of my normal. 🤔

When you need caffeine to work so you can wake up, but you have ADHD so it just sedates you and makes you take a nap instead. Coffee + energy drink later, I’m sleepier now than I was when I woke up. The stimulant effect curse.

It’s been over a year since I’ve had human physical contact. Only kitty affection and kitty cuddles. My autistic senses get easily overloaded by human touch. It’s been a relief going without it. Year went by and didn’t even notice.

Absentmindedly took my nighttime meds at noon instead of my ADHD meds. Drank almost an entire Monster can + 1/2 mug coffee within 10 minutes to try to stay awake. It didn’t work. Caffeine is supposed to overpower the sedation but in my ADHD brain it had the opposite effect and I slept half the day.

I’ve had almost 2 pots of coffee today (5-cup coffee maker) and I feel like I’ve had none at all. Thanks for that, ADHD.

There are a lot of posts about people not believing autistics that they are autistic. No one has ever doubted that I’m autistic. Just “that makes a lot of sense” and “I know.” It’s so obvious to people. I must be the stereotypes. I’m a bit of an outsider with other autistics on that one.

90% of the stress and drama in my adult life was caused by other people. 10% is from existing as myself with several disabilities. While I’ve socially isolated myself in my local world, I am enjoying my peace.

Today was the busiest day with my business. I haven’t worked this hard in a long time. Worn out and having some coffee before bed to help me sleep. 😴

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I’d say (based on personal experience) one of the worst jobs for and autistic person is apartment leasing. Forced to make eye contact and friendly small talk with a smile repeatedly 5 days a week to lease apartments. I was SO drained at the end of the day and scripted everything I said. Never again

Being home every day with my cats and working for myself answering to no one makes me forget what day of the week it is.

I’m simultaneously bored, unable to make myself do anything even fun stuff, and now just sitting on the couch like a lump. I want to do all the things, yet I do nothing at all. #ADHD #AuDHD

Perk of having ADHD is that I can have coffee before bed to help me fall asleep.

My cats went on a hunger strike because I fed them dry food instead of wet food. Brought home just one can of wet food as a special rare treat, and that’s all it took and now all 3 cats demand wet food every day and every meal. *sigh* what have I done. It’s expensive 😭

When I was 39, I felt like I was in a good place and accomplished a lot, which I have. After I turned 40 I feel like I’m failing at life. I’m a lot harder on myself when I struggle because of ADHD like “I’m too old to act like this.” Find myself asking a lot, “Why am I like this??” ADHD tax.

Qelbree is the only other ADHD med (non-stimulant) my psych said I could take, but 90 day supply is $1,100. $378 for 30 pills. Ridiculous price gouging! No generic either.

Since many might not know me from X, my name is Ashley Lauren Spencer. I own and run an online store called The Autistic Innovator that’s dedicated to supporting the autistic & neurodivergent community for over 3 years. This is the store: shop.autisticinnovator.com Nice to meet you everyone! 👋❤️

My psych told me yesterday there’s nothing more he can do for me with the ADHD after the Strattera wore off again. I already have no impulse control, and stimulants will make it worse. Bit down today knowing I’m stuck being debilitated by ADHD, but I’ll continue on. I always do.

Most days I really hate having ADHD. I struggle with it so much. Strattera keeps wearing off, and the dose can’t go any higher. So I’m stuck like this. Doing my best to not turn all this into internalized ableism and self-blame. ADHD is far more disabling for me than the autism.

I believe her, too! 💜💙💖 #ActuallyAutistic

I think I’ll organize a Secret Santa for my office this year. I’m self employed and the only person at my organization so it will just be me buying little treats for myself.

It’s nice and cool outside today, which means I can wear my sensory soothing hoodies. 🙂 Small autistic joys.

My cat Sam enjoys the ambiance and lights on the Christmas tree.

The number of people I follow on X has gone down by a lot, so I’m assuming people are deleting their accounts and coming here? I’ve been on Mastodon mainly but I’m taking a break from it for a bit.

I gave my newly adopted senior kitty wet food today for the first time. He screamed like I’ve never fed him before. Ate so fast he practically inhaled it. Guess that means I should give him more wet food? 😄