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He/They/She 31 Pan Moonlighting Mistress Neverland Lost Boi VRChat Enthusiast I am a survivor of narcissistic abuse. Let's talk about it. 🔞 NSFW Art 🔞 Minors DNI 🔞
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*Breaks the fourth wall during the loading screen* "What's for lunch? I'm starving." ~ 💜

People seeing the racerback under my shirt and thinking I am a responsible person wearing an under shirt but really it's a sports bra. 🤭💅

So, here is something I wanted to showcase. I have discovered a few different ways that I can express character and tone through her features. So for example, through some subliminal trickery and the lovely shape of her teeth, I can change the tone of her smile by manipulating my jaw differently.

I worked out my nappy muscle today 💅

I have really enjoyed messing around with different lighting conditions and seeing how they end up changing the feel of clothing or mood. Having her body being lit well while the lingerie does not properly receive as much light produces an interesting effect. 🤭

*Sees vein popping out of shoulder setting the weight down* Disgusting...iloveit 😈

Got back to my vehicle and there was a little jumping spider on the decklid. Jumping spiders are the cutest little dudes. 👀 I assisted them to the wooded section of the area after about 4 or 5 trust excercises. haha I actually have a jumping spider OC rolling around in my head for some day later. 😊

I was just watching a video talking about how abusers' behavior exists on a covert spectrum of tactics that they use to control you where they will progress if the subtle actions do not work. The educator was speaking on thinking into this related to your situation. The way my jaw dropped thinking

Some poor sod just told me he'd see me in hell before he got frozen in that carbonite stuff and floated off to who knows where. Honestly, I'm kinda looking forward to it, seemed like my kind of fellow. *Hears the sound of a 1970s era Dacor Regulator approaching*

There is something profoundly sad for those who permanently lose people not thru one traumatic event ending in absolute closure like death. Empty space like halls. There is also something beautiful about having discovered the gumption to fill those voids with yourself, self love...nay, the gall. 💜

If you see this you've already passed the event horizon. It's too late for you now. ~ Prepare for spaghettification. ~ 🤣💜

I was thinking more on gaslighting phrases this morning. "You always need to get the last word" This phrase conditioned me into not challenging people. It is not that I need the last word. It is that I had a response to what was said. It is not "always"- an absolute. It is /in response/ to you.

The world of our imagination draped in technicolor lumination. ~ 💜

Random AFAB: 'Hey, new in the gym, looking for advice on *gym trope, pit fall, mental barrier* since I am new!' Me: 'AMAB here, here are some pitfalls I experienced and more healthy ways to think about them that served me.' Random: 'I'm offended that you would say all that about me.' Oh...okay. 👍

Bit of a live line of thought; A narcissist who has chosen you as a main source of their supply imposes upon you an impossible test. Every single person in their entire life has failed this test. The test is to be their perfect idealized friend/partner/whatever. They believe that this unicorn they-

Greetings, programs. ~ 💜

Oh, good evening, Mr. Bill. 🫡

Wars reward.

PSA for people with pattern recognition when listening to Trump, I have to regularly remind myself to turn off my 'predictive text' when I am listening to him speak because I am capable of understanding what he *isn't* saying while he rambles. Listen to the words he allows himself to use though.

For those curious about my process, I mocked up some shots to give a little visual representation. Often, I will initially line up the shot by hand. After finding a composition that feels good, world anchor or avatar anchor depending on your needs. Where you see my hand is where my display is.

"This bitch fucks" is simultaneously the most accurate description a person incapable of witnessing me could have made towards me and the exact reason why that person self-destructed seemingly on queue later. It's that spark that you don't understand. Stop choosing emptiness. Learn to grow.

💔"You left me in the dark." 🌌"That's where stars are born." 💔"And made love feel like fire. Like absence." 🌌"So you would stop seeking to be chosen and start choosing yourself." 💔"You're cruel." 🌌"No. Precise."

"Mos Eisley flow, beats bangin' on the Space Bar. Haters get mad, star bangin' on the spacebar" 🎶 xD

Just be hot and break all of the bullshit unspoken social contracts. You've been waiting your whole life for this moment in your history. 💜

I have a very colorful coat depending on how we choose to employ the English language. ~ 💜

Girl is your shoulders bounders? 'Cause I'm tryin' to get stuck between your rock and hard places.

A burly fellow leads you from the door of the venue to an ascending staircase in a dimly lit corner of the room. As you begin the climb, he pauses for a moment to preface you about the boss. Nodding in agreement you continue clambering you feel your hackles erect instinctively as you turn your head.

Successful work day, successful gym trip, successful foods even with a little treat for being a good bean. Now I'mma go get some more photos and just vibe.

Work lumpch for birthday and a co-worker leaving. Num num Fajitas. 😊