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I am a survivor of narcissistic abuse. Let's talk about it.
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Sawtooth-anime style, comic book-esque smooth grin by closing that gap, or the classic of the more humanoid inline teeth.
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So coooool!
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This just in; I have stumbled across a recently filmed video of lightning striking a police cruiser supposedly in New Castle Oklahoma xD
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THAT's fucking hilarious. xD
Plantation 'resort' burning down... twice, and a confederate museum getting absolutely bodied, both by beloved Mother Nature. She seems to be upset. Maybe it was something they were wearing. 🤷♀️
What comes next, I wonder? 🤭
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what would be classified as physical violence. She knew what I was doing. She knew that I felt that I needed it, and she wanted to physically stand in the way of that.
*She wanted to keep me dysregulated.*
They know what they are doing.
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She asked me to quit. I did later, ultimately for monetary and health reasons, following my word.
When I ended up in such a state that I went out of my way to go and get vape juice again months later, feeling once again that the benefit was outweighing the negative, THAT was when she escalated to
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back to a different situation, I arrived at my vaping before.
I told her that I had quit vaping previously. I told her that the only reason I had started again was *spcifically* to regulate my stress. I told her that it was one of the only effective ways I had to regulate stress back then.
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We love fishnets 👀💜
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If you apologize and take fault in what you did wrong, that fits in with their idealized unicorn. Now maybe they believe in you again, but this unicorn still doesn't exist in reality. If you don't follow their script, they hate you just as deeply as they hate themselves, simply for daring to be you.
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created will be the thing that fixes them and finally motivates them to change their ways. But, when they find out that you are only human and flawed just like they are, instead of finding comfort and connection in that fact, they devalue you and we arrive back at the beginning of the cycle.
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Progress is not linear. Progress does not look like our idealized version of success. Sometimes progress is ugly. Sometimes we have regressive episodes/moments. That's okay! You are not worth *less* because you have PTSD. Your life is what makes you who you are. You are worth oh-so-very-much, Love.💜
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If you can ignore the predictive part of your brain for a few moments while listening to him, his cognitive decline becomes a lot more apparent. So much of what he says puts the burden on the listener to interpret, when in reality he is just using connecting words with no substance. There's no meat.
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I think a lot of people fail to understand what these things are entirely. They are creatures of habit and conditioning. They are parrots on a sports team that they desperately need to convince other people is cool enough to join. They want to recruit friends to their 'hobby'. They found 'purpose'.
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Pick details from the specific shot you are going for that are important to you, and focus on those details the most. Don't try to plan every inch of the photo necessarily, free-flowing 'accidents' make some of the most remarkable successes.
Failure is only measured thru a willingness to accept it.
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After starting the delay, my focus is on getting back into posed position fully! So my eyes are on the monitor at first while I get my free-floating hand back into position, for example. Once I feel like I have the position, look into the camera!
Review shots often, and don't give up! 😊
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Once I have the shot lined up and I have adjusted light and color balance to some form of liking, I like to use the 5-second delay. I put a lot of effort into hand placement, so often times I will try to find one of my hands' 'permanent location', and I will activate the delay with the other hand.
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You cannot see the display in the final photo, but in most cases, I will have my display very close to where I need my eyes to be looking so that I can monitor it without needing to move too much. Moving can mess up your careful posing! Though it happens all of the time, you can still get the shot!
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*Queue dramatic slow-mo intro sequence. "Astra" quoth the animated text sprawling diagonally across the foreground*
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What they are telling you behind the guilt-tripping and blame-shifting is that they want to know you better or would like to talk more.. but they do not know how to sit with those feelings and express them plainly. It's not your problem or responsibility to fix it for them.
You deserve to exist. 💜
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be different. Our preferences are all unique and all important.
Elders are much different and have odd expectations sometimes. They often have unprocessed generational trauma and are not as emotionally mature as we understood them to be growing up. It's okay to be yourself! It's okay to be.-
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You are allowed to live your life. 💜
Don't let others try to contort you into a box, your soul remembers it and it tortures us. Be yourself. There is nothing that comes inherently wrong with who you are. Sometimes people don't understand us. It is not our job to make them understand. It's okay to-