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megadroog.bsky.social
the one place I’m trying to figure things out. anonymously. full of contradictions. lowercase = dark my orientation is to learn about/promote/side with/root for those who currently/historically experience systemic/systematic, structural oppression
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my dad would hate me

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the only thing keeping me breathing is that I’m not going down alone

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interesting development: i think I’m so mentally fucked up im slightly starting to hallucinate a bit

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my s/o just asked me to book a hotel for the night for them and their partner. looking forward to spending the evening on some sort of su!c!de hotline

submitted 434 days ago • 0 comments

i got caught last week for burning cigarettes in my knees, front and back, by my s/o. told my therapist and psychiatrist. i don’t even feel like doing that. and probably won’t again. maybe because a few got infected.

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my dad would be so incredibly ashamed of me

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I hate, loathe, detest, and abhor myself. I am consumed with guilt, shame, rage, sadness, despair, hopelessness. all of this is reasonable and to be expected, considering my life. my actions. what I do to people. crazy part is the worst is to come. the darkness will be bad. truly alone

submitted 435 days ago • 0 comments

a lot more of the same, and a lot more. hopeless. pointless.

submitted 449 days ago • 0 comments

no good ending

submitted 449 days ago • 0 comments

no reprieve from hating my self, my life, the fact i have hurt and still hurt people, that my past is a sham, i have no idea who i am, and my future short and long term is fucked

submitted 449 days ago • 0 comments

lost

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at the bar

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end might be close

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by 9 this morning i burned myself, before i had a drink.

submitted 456 days ago • 0 comments

30 years ago tonight I was at this Nirvana concert. 🤘🏻🖤

submitted 458 days ago • 4 comments

Dancer #art

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the ink has a really nice texture

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wayward widow

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The Little shop of science is on Connecticut Avenue NW #sciart

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it was estimated in 2022 that 109 billion humans who at one time existed, died www.weforum.org/agenda/2022/...

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Always a favorite…

submitted 458 days ago • 1 comment

ideations

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[chainsaw revving noise] You’re listening to [gunshots] 102.6 BSKY FM [bong noises] With Skeeter [cartoon wolf howl] In the mornings

submitted 465 days ago • 2 comments

using my Flipper Zero to hack open my web-enabled chastity cage because the domme misplaced her phone and the last firmware update broke web access

submitted 481 days ago • 0 comments

The Postal Service Voigtlander Bessa R3A Voigtlander Nokton 40mm f1.4 Cinestill 400D at 1600 Cinestill C41 #BelieveInFilm #FilmPhotography #35mm #FilmIsAlive

submitted 474 days ago • 0 comments

current preference would be a way that my brain can’t be examined. i want to ensure that.

submitted 477 days ago • 0 comments

v. dark

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i’m so damaged beyond repair

submitted 479 days ago • 0 comments

like, you know when you’re playing a game and it’s so obvious you can’t win you quit or resign? that’s me playing life.

submitted 480 days ago • 0 comments

life would be less painful for me and others if i wasn’t here

submitted 480 days ago • 0 comments

life doesn’t seem to work for me. or, i don’t jive well with the world. all evidence supports this.

submitted 480 days ago • 0 comments

life doesn’t seem to work for me. or, i don’t jive well with the world. all evidence supports this.

submitted 480 days ago • 0 comments

open.spotify.com/track/21JWKt...

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v. close to getting dark

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intellectually, i know what’s ahead. but my brain can not conjure up any picture of what that looks like, in any capacity. i don’t ever recognize myself or my life anymore. not where either are going. next week, next month, next year, tomorrow.

submitted 484 days ago • 0 comments

i’m so sad about my life, thinking about the people i have hurt and all the things i wasted.

submitted 484 days ago • 0 comments

i’m glad we didn’t know the last time was the last time at the time.

submitted 484 days ago • 0 comments

i have so much guilt and regret. i ruined someone and something i care about more than anything in the world. while i am genuinely happy for them, moving and having moved on, it’s painful. so painful. and i’m all alone. so alone. i think the last time i was held or touched or hugged was january.

submitted 484 days ago • 0 comments

drunk. hiding from roommate. puke soon.

submitted 485 days ago • 0 comments

life, and my life, is so fucking stupid. pointless.

submitted 486 days ago • 0 comments

it’s amazing how i have learned to perfect crying so silently and without any noticeable movement while a fucking river of tears gushes down my face and off my chin.

submitted 486 days ago • 0 comments

This mf’er… ❤️👇

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❤️👇

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❤️👇🙏

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Remember arcane brain rot? When we all fell in love with Vi? Anyway - here is Silco with a bong

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Brush Pen #BelieveInPens

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