become so hyper fixated and obsessed with all of it that all my loved ones are sick of hearing me recap the news to them because i sound increasingly like this
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1/ I hear you! Make time for solitude, friend and family, fur babies, immersing in nature, taking walks, taking baths, meditation, exercise, reading books, visiting museums, sharing humor (even dark humor) with people who get it..
I thought I was having a heart attack after breakfast today. Nope. Just my autonomic system dysfunction. A few more weeks and I’ll have more answers 🤞🏼🤞🏼
We each need to figure out a balance. Stay informed, but protect our own energy at all costs. I think while the storm of chaos is raging, we should turn within. Meditate, read, be in nature. Stay grounded.
Weed, trauma that I already have (CPTSD) has sent me past anger into numb, disassociation, insomnia. When I am working, I am on autopilot. But I am not ignoring it, I am just trying to.
I take that for nerve damage. They just gave me another med to add to it to help bc the pain is getting bad again…and it has an antidepressant in it. 10 YEARS of not needing an antidepressant, major surgeries, etc and now I am having to take one.
It’s called Cortisol Manager and it’s incredible. It’s by Integrative Therapeutics. It calms ur nervous system, helps you get amazing sleep, and helped several of us lose weight.
meds, therapy, a LOT of weed. also I'm not ignoring it, my brain is literally on fire and bored at the same time at all times, i just am reeeeeeeally good at masking.
Trying to find something to focus on that makes me feel in control. So going through my basement prep & seeing what needs to be restocked (I do that always not just an election thing), for example. My new one is cutting down on social media/posting & reading more books.
At the house I live in the use it to lash out at the person who's least responsible for whatever the fuck this is. Sometimes that's the dog and sometimes it's me.
I’m there! I have a Mast Cell Disease, and any emotional, stressful thing can make me physically sick and put me into anaphylaxis. Our disease’s nickname is, “allergic to the world” which also lead to having a widow maker heart attack 🤷🏼♂️
Well, my ANS just does its own thing and I have no choice but to sit back and panic over whether the (very) rapid heart beating is my heart finally gearing up to die out or, my personal favorite, the existential dread of waiting to see if there will be another beat after that very long pause. 🙃
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Not well
Not well at all
Only issue is I can't focus on the good things either.
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self-care…
In those brief times I focus on what's in front of me, what's happening before me right now
Then the *gestures at everything* creeps back in. Repeat.