kdaisies.bsky.social
Escritor trans de darkromance LGBTQIA+ #novelincontrolavel 👉 livro físico: @luoeditora • Ele/Dele (he/him) • 26 anos • CONTEÚDO ADULTO: -18 não interaja (MDI)
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You can help me by sharing my case or donating to my mastectomy campaign through PayPal (US donations) (email: [email protected]), donations in BRL through the link campanhadobem.com.br/campanhas/ma...
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Furthermore, I still demand my mastectomy ANYWAY, because it's my right as a transgender person! After all, dysphoria inflames the inherent condition of whatever is affecting my mental health!
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Now, if I'm neurodivergent and I have a mental condition BEYOND gender identity, I DEMAND my diagnosis and an ACCURATE assessment so that I have a basis for what exactly I'm recovering from, what my condition is, and what rights I have!
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If I'm not neurodivergent and my crises are exacerbated by dysphoria caused by the need for mastectomy, I DEMAND, at a minimum: the mastectomy.
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I KNOW I'm neurodivergent, but I don't have a diagnosis because the psychiatry team doesn't give us diagnoses easily, but it's always easy to incapacitate us and say that we need to "recover from the crisis" before addressing the root cause of the damn crisis.
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The question is, don't neurodivergent individuals have the right to have surgery as well??? After all, it's dysphoria that's inflaming a mental health condition I already have!!?
I won't allow myself to be silenced or buried by cisgender norms. I will fight for my surgery, by any means it may come.
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It's unfeasible. I don't deny the need for psychiatric and psychological care. I don't deny that this goes beyond my gender identity; I talk openly about it every day, I know I'm neurodivergent.
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How can one stabilize after going through all the necessary consultations at UREDIPE, having my data lost, restarting the count at Casulo, having yet another year of regular follow-up, and finally, after all this time, being referred, only to be told that I "need to stabilize" first????
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To be honest, I don't even feel like GOING BACK TO CASULO!! Everything is an illusion. A lie. It seems that no one from SESPA or the Government of Pará really cares about the transgender population. We have to accept everything silently and pretend that everything is fine!
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Even if this "get better a little more" innocently refers to a few weeks, it still shattered someone's expectations in a CRUEL way. I sincerely felt driven to madness, and I left there desolate without even getting to talk to the psychiatrist.
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The SESPA (the State Department of Health of Pará) should investigate my situation because at this moment, it felt easier to end my life completely; it was my support network that got me back on track!
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but they consider that I FIRST have to get better mentally to have the surgery (????)
Obviously, I gave myself the right not to stay in the Casulo office under the extremely stressful conditions that have made me go through this ONCE AGAIN.
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How could I get better from what hurts before being able to get better from what hurts?? It doesn't make sense. I feel dysphoria about my chest, and this operation is an urgent need that is being neglected and affecting my mental health
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You see, as I said, the reason for my crisis was a trigger that made me feel dysphoric. It was dysphoria that made me feel bad, it was the lack of respect and responsibility with MY DOCUMENTS when I was at UREDIPE, it was MY NEED TO HAVE SURGERY that seemed extremely distant.
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Basically, the argument I heard was that the psychology and psychiatry team understood that I "had just come out of a crisis" and therefore I "needed to get better a little more" before being referred to Jean Bittar (the hospital that performs mastectomies).
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On the 1st, however, when I went to the Casulo project (I had a routine appointment with a psychologist, and theoretically, I was ONLY going to do an anamnesis with the psychiatrist to get my assessment), everything went wrong.
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My campaign:
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I was so confident that I would have the surgery through SUS that, perhaps those who follow me have noticed, I reduced the promotion of my campaign.
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Especially a dream that directly relates to my mental health, given that the need for this surgery causes me to have very low lows, to become extremely depressed, and to desire to give up on my life!!! These were the hopes that were given to me.
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Obviously, I was SUPER HAPPY, thinking that I was going to get my surgery through SUS!!!
I don't know if you can understand how delicate it is to give someone with a dream hope.
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He added that on the 1st of the month, I should go to an appointment with the psychiatrist to obtain the last necessary assessment, and then it would be with the social services (to be referred to Jean Bittar).
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I filled out an anamnesis and did the same with the psychologist. When I asked the endocrinologist if he thought I could still have my surgery this year, he said it was VERY LIKELY.
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However, my hopes of getting surgery through SUS were revived last week when, during a consultation with the endocrinologist at the Casulo project, he started the referral process for me to go to Jean Bittar.
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As I mentioned before, I had given up on the public health system (SUS) after they lost my medical records from UREDIPE (the former outpatient clinic), and I spent ANOTHER YEAR at Casulo with the count of time RESET.
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This gave me a boost, and I managed to climb out of the pit, even though my psychiatrist increased my medication dosage.
With the donated money, I was even able to have my first private consultation with the mastologist.
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Even though I was depressed, I stayed strong in therapy, attending regularly, following the psychiatrist's recommendations to bring my partner for dialogue, and I even started a campaign to raise funds for my surgery.
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So, I continued my therapy at Casulo (the transgender outpatient clinic in my city) as usual, being honest and open with the professionals there during this delicate time, which coincided with the rib injury I suffered from wearing a binder.
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One thing that doesn't make sense is that everything in my life was fine. My only trigger had been a comment from my own son that left me extremely dysphoric.
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Afinal, a disforia inflama a condição inerente do que quer que acometa minha saúde mental!
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para que eu tenha respaldo do que exatamente eu tô me recuperando, qual é a minha condição e os direitos que tenho! E não obstante, ainda assim, eu ainda exijo minha mastectomia de QUALQUER FORMA, porque é meu direito como pessoa trans!
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Se eu não sou neurodivergente e minhas crises estão inflamadas pela disforia causada pela necessidade da mastectomia eu EXIJO no mínimo: a mastectomia. Agora se eu sou neurodivergente e tenho uma condição mental pra ALÉM da situação de gênero eu EXIJO o meu diagnóstico e laudo PRECISO
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Eu SEI que sou neurodivergente mas não tenho laudo porque a própria equipe de psiquiatria NÃO NOS DÁ DIAGNÓSTICOS facilmente, mas pra nos incapacitar e pra dizer que a gente precisa "se recuperar da crise" antes de ir corrigir a fonte causadora da maldita crise, sempre é fácil.
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A questão é, neurodivergente não tem direito de se operar também??? Afinal, é a disforia que está inflamando uma condição de saúde mental que eu já tenho!!? Eu não vou me deixar ser defunto, enterrado pela cisgeneridade. Eu vou lutar pela minha operação, por qualquer via que ela chegar.
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É inviável. Eu não nego ter necessidade de acompanhamento com psiquiatra e psicologia. Eu não nego que isso é algo pra além da minha identidade de gênero, eu falo abertamente sobre isso diariamente, eu sei que sou neurodivergente.
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Como que fica estável depois de fazer todas as consultas necessárias na UREDIPE, ter meus dados perdidos, recomeçar a contagem no casulo, ter de novo todo o acompanhamento assíduo por mais um ano, pra finalmente depois de todo esse tempo ser encaminhado, só que eu "preciso me estabilizar" antes????
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Pra ser honesto eu não sinto vontade NEM DE VOLTAR PRO CASULO!!!! que tudo é uma ilusão. Uma mentira. Parece que ninguém da Sespa ou do próprio Governo do Pará realmente se importa com a população trans. A gente tem que aceitar tudo calado e fingindo que tá tudo ótimo!
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Mesmo que esse "melhorar um pouco mais" inocente se refira a algumas semanas, ainda assim, quebrar a expectativa de alguém assim foi de uma CRUELDADE sem tamanho. Eu fiquei sinceramente ensandecido e sai de lá desolado sem nem mesmo chegar a falar com o psiquiatra.
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A SESPA (secretaria de saude do estado do Pará) deveria apurar minha situação porque nesse momento eu senti que era mais fácil acabar de vez com minha vida, foi minha rede de apoio que me colocou nos eixos!
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Obviamente, eu me dei ao direito que não permanecer dentro do consultório do casulo nas condições de extremo estresse que me fizeram passar MAIS UMA VEZ.
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Eu sinto disforia com minhas mamas e essa operação é uma necessidade urgente que está sendo negligenciada e afetando minha saúde mental, mas consideram que eu tenho que PRIMEIRO ficar melhor da saúde mental para poder operar (????)
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UREDIPE, foi A MINHA NECESSIDADE DE OPERAR parecer algo extremamente distante.. Como poderia eu, melhorar do que me machuca antes de ir poder melhorar o que machuca?? Não faz sentido.
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para aí sim ser encaminhado para o Jean Bittar (hospital que realiza a mastectomia). Veja bem, como eu disse, o motivo de minha crise foi um gatilho que me deixou DISFÓRICO. Foi a DISFORIA que me deixou mal, foi a falta de respeito e responsabilidade com MEUS DOCUMENTOS de quando eu estava na