library director i know let me take home a good 20 pounds of books the library was going to give away for free, including more than one on my to-buy list
Mostly meat and guts, honestly. But I'm rehearsing for a reading of a musical that's happening next week, and that's giving me something to look forward/channel my stress into!
Friends, crossword puzzles, my boss telling me if there's anything I need help with in life I can ask her, pink lemonade kit kats (they're disgusting, I love them)
Deactivating most of my social media, deleting the apps, and no news. I can't handle listening to every single person I know spout their opinion right now and probably not until after the holidays. Focusing on my people and figuring out where I can best be a decent person to those who need it most.
I went through the Reagan years with college friends dying of AIDS, democratically elected govs in SA being overthrown for corporate America and mass incarceration of black men. We survived that mean-eyed motherfucker, we'll find a way to survive this one.
Honesty I have been comfort listening to old episodes of podcasts I love at work and when I come home I have been playing with my 6mo and my 2 yr old who has been aggressively extra silly this week. It's helped a lot
This little lady is 19 years old. She deserves to be as comfortable as possible for as long as that's possible, and I need to have my shit at least moderately together to provide that.
Listening to The Adventure Zone Versus Dracula, baking and eating no-knead bread, and playing Minecraft (this last one really keeps me from doom-scrolling in the evening). Also making plans to see friends and eat bread with them.
Balance is unbeatable for me, especially the earlier episodes when they're still very new to playing. I think the show is best when they're not taking it too seriously - which is pretty true of Versus Dracula too!
This high school kid I was tutoring was doing a group project on obesity and I was calling the project out like Kramer dressed as Santa telling a kid about how capitalism is bullshit. I think I got through, but I only had an hour.
Some expired propranolol I was prescribed for flying in January 2020 and never took; Australian Taskmaster; learning that the back catalog of The Great American Pop Culture Quiz Show was still on Spotify; and the idea that at some point soon there are going to be a lot of obvious actions to take.
Also I am not crossing the digital picket line of the New York Times games but I was really missing them, so I’ve been playing Quordle, where you play four Wordle games simultaneously. https://www.merriam-webster.com/games/quordle/#/
Having been a kid in the 00s. Gay meant bad, transgender people were a joke, Abu Ghraib was open for torture, getting married was impossible, anti-asian racism was normal — it really was the before times, and it was bad too.
Naps, a workplace that deeply cares and is allowing us to take space as we need, the cozy cocoon of our family unit, going back to my higher dose of my SSRI, trying to stay in the present instead of assuming any one trajectory is inevitable. The sleeve-rolling comes later but it will come
my beautiful wife, my kind and loving friends and my endlessly compassionate friends. my future career as a social worker and therapist. the love that so many people have showed up to show trans people. the fact that my pets don't know what's going on and just wanna hang out with mom.
Friends. The absurdity of it all, which would be hilarious if it weren't so harmful. My compañera that survived an abusive marriage says, I've already lived through the worst thing there is, we'll get through this.
Music. Actively dissociating through curated playlists to resonate and modulate my emotional balance.
Might need to be a daily effort for the foreseeable future.
They're like 22 and they're so scared, and so am I, and I think being able to tell each other we're all scared for strangers and our loved ones and ourselves helps
Relistening to old episodes of podcasts that’s are like warm blankets (the snake oil & Pilates and Bragg episodes of maintenance phase have been in the rotation)
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Yeah, kinda bleak.
I believe her.
That's what I got.
https://youtu.be/b-r4Flc_d2M
My friends.
Women punk singers and crafting projects / cleaning.
The resolve to write with more Teeth.
Might need to be a daily effort for the foreseeable future.