There's an animation in Dark Souls, whenever you actually die, where you do this kind of 'oh wait, shit, that got through the armor' flinch before you faceplant about it and die on the spot.
Ironically enough transitioning made my depression worse because I transitioned around only cis individuals who reminded me everyday that I would never be valid enough to where it’s stuck with me and now I live in hell forever
I moved away to do it. Still have no friends. I had a few relationships the past 16 years that were very cloistered and the last 10yrs with one was absolute Hell but yeah, left with the wreckage and no friend situation still. It's a bitch doing new places + trans. A bitch doing old places, too.
Hopefully you get out it in a better spot than I ended up. It's not very social out here anymore. 2004 is nothing like 2024 when it comes to making friends with strangers. Sucks. I have social issues that hinder it and society doesn't meet half way anymore.
Don't forget a bunch of neonazi pedophiles constantly dredging up and pointing to the remaining 30% of mental problems to say "see! all transness is a mental illness!"
Ok yeah fair, happens to me too. But the feeling bad about it that compounds is due to capitalism and childhood trauma. I wish I could feel less bad about zoning out for a while.
I feel bad about it because I would really like to eat something. I also feel bad when my autism makes me not see friends because my brain can't simply fo ssomething unprepared. Like okay capitalism is bad but it's still a disorder for a reason.
Oh dang. When my doctor told me I was just describing depression I literally said “no no, you see I already dealt with all that, this must be something different!”. She told me to come see her again in a week, I called her 3 days later!
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Love that comic tho. I wish more of the dummies out there could read and comprehend it.
This made me flinch like that.
J: Not yet.
ADHD
ASD
Ehler's Danlos
Hypermobility
Fybromyalgia
But doctors will wait until you've checked 3 off the list before saying
"Oh btw, HUGE correlation there fyi!"
Its like if an egg has two yolks but instead of 2 its 17 and counting.
Whomst? Whomst?